"Maybe youre not the only guy for me, but when i look at love, yours is the only face i see."





i always believe in Fate. How Fate can bring two souls together, how they are really made for each other, and that they would eventually live happily ever after. Ohwell. ive always told myself, to be wary, and to find the right guy. My girlfrens hav always told me, not to settle for jus anyone, even how that guy loves you. Look at his job, his status, his looks etc etc. And ive been doing jus that, till i met Him. He, like i mentioned in one of my entries before, whos 2 years younger, whos still a lil' immature for me, (i realize). He whos kinda naive at times, who still loves clubbg, unlike me, whos way over that era i guess. He who loves me, for who i am, who cares for me, and shows how much he yearns for my love. He, whos a lil' possessive over me, alil' playful at times and i could see, that he still hasnt had enough of playing.. He, IS THE ONE, despite all odds, whom ive accepted wholeheartedly as my boyfren and i care not what others wanna say about us and our relationship. Because i believe that he will change.. as he grows older, he'll get wiser, and eventually he would think more maturely and do things more for the Future, and not jus for the Now.

And he's the only one whom my family hav seen, and whom didn really leave a great impression to them, so much so that they hope it would be the last time that they would be seeing him. I kno their intentions. They feel that i deserve someone better: Older, mature, has a stable job etc. Despite how they've seen him going through the hard times with me, how he promised to not even utter the word "break" to me despite how tough things were between us. And true enough, he didn break his promise. Ive always been the one who would give up and wanted to let go of this relationship. But after seeing how he had been sticking through those hard times with me, especially during my worst experience being in hospital, i felt touched, and i could sense how much he loves me. But whats there to Love these days? Can Love really withstand all obstacles? I teared when my dad texted me and told me not to see him again. But, i guess, no one can stop me now.

ive grown much stronger after receiving my "karma" jus two weeks bac. (You would never hav guessed what ive been through. Emotional breakdowns, mentally distorted, physical torture, guilt...) andddd. Ive made up my mind to be with him. Of course it's a risky decision. And life's full of uncertainties, especially when i were to think about how far our Love can bring us to, how long are we able to sustain this relationship of ours, and what Future holds for us both. Of course if anything bad were to happen, i'd put all the blame to myself. ALL OF IT. i'd bear all consequences. Im sure this is jus one of Life's Challenges that im facing, RIGHT NOW.