Friday, March 28, 2008
myramoxiaomai from URL @ 13:35
thursday, 270308
ive been having weird dreams lately. and it was all not related. like one day i'd be dreaming i was a drug addict, another day i'd be dreaming i was chased by a man. that kind? and ive been dreaming about all sorts of people i know. ytd was aaron and jingyi! AHA.
anyways, was good to meet up with my dear sodium or my one and only best childhood friend. :) went to esplanade to talk and update each other. hmmm. altho we had little time to talk, it was still great to be able to catch up with her. :)) but she freaked out ytd when we unknowingly walked rightt in to the GENTS! and there was this guy who was like looking at us smiling? like hello? what you girls doing here? MWAHAHAHA. we couldn help laughing away. how silly!
anyways, what do you call it. when you feel youve got tons of problems sitting on your shoulders, waiting for you to clear them one by one, but yet, you jus feel that you might be bac on track, only that the path is not very clear? i don know. right now i know i miss my past. those hard times were worth remembering acty. and how i moved out of them. yepp. :)
THERE'S STILL A GLIMPSE OF HOPE. I KNOW I CAN GET THROUGH THIS :)
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
myramoxiaomai from URL @ 21:36
monday, 240308i was supa dupa tired today! went to work. what i did? i covered the WHOLE of spore today, travelling from clementi to tiong bahru, then to west mall, bac to jurong east, headed to woodlands, then thomson medical centre, and then kk hospital, and to plaza sing and ended up going bac to tiong. i actually walked most of the time, till my feet felt sooo bloody tired i jus felt like fitting my ass somewhere to rest my feet. but i learnt a great deal from joyce again, and i also realized that spore is indeed a tiny little dot after all!
unexpectedly met up with the saBROS! wilson and nehneh louis! woohoo! i admit i was really crazy. with them, all i could do was laugh. stoopid nehneh! bully people only. nabehh. HAHAHA. ehh bros! we'd forgotten to snap snap snap! change primary pic! WAHAHA. :))
and then went to meet up with zh, ts, master, chiobuu, yh and anne at master's house!CLICK HERE FOR MORE ON TODAY'S POST PLEASE!tuesday, 250308was way too tired physically. lethargic to be exact. mebbe due to that unhealthy routine i always adopted. nabehh. shall change! come night time, met up with bro at tiong, but walked to bukit merah macs and chilled there awhile, talking about "our" problems, and anything under the sun. :)TRIED ON BRO'S SPECS! BIG RIGHTT?
BRO LOOKING SO SERIOUS! READING SEHH! AND THE PIG SAID, "HI! IM AH XIANG!" 
TODAY!
brought my sis to meet bao chun the hairdresser! she rawks laaa! cheap cheap and nice nice. my sis rebonded, cut and coloured her hair dark brown at last! :)) and and and, my sis revealed something kinda shocking today! cute luhhh. =)) why? i dreamt of you today? like wtf? "heart pain"? "bye bye"? are dreams really opposite of reality? :( sooo many things to deal with now, yet i look like as if im taking them too easily, like as if i don care! or perhaps, im jus helpless? :((
Sunday, March 23, 2008
myramoxiaomai from URL @ 16:49
jus woke up not long ago, but i wish i could sleep bac again. not because im sleepy, jus cus i wanna continue my dream again. had a really really nice dream. i wonder who was the guy with me all along. the dream was kinda scary, cus there was this guy, lets call him X, who wanted to take revenge on me cus his love wasnt reciprocated, and then one day when he wanted to pull me to him, i seek "refuge" in this guy, my saviour, who was also my friend. and he was beaten up by some hooligans along the way when he wanted to protect me. i couldn see his face clearly, but it was a really nice feeling to be by his side. ohmann. what a dream!
and then i thought, mebbe God was telling me that probably He has a better guy for me, so i shouldn cling on to him. hmmmm. when i say im letting go, i sure must. :)) shall go with the flow. :D
tuesday is drawing near. im scared. what am i to do with my life?
myramoxiaomai from URL @ 05:43
friday, 210308 STEAMBOAT
MASTER ON BABY CHAIR! CUTE LEII!
THIS ONE EVEN CUTER. SEE WHERE'S CHIOBUU'S RIGHT HAND?
NICE ONE. I DIDN KNOW!
accomplished something great, at least to me. had successfully made a blog for fcukers. :) it is a bigg deal, cus fcukers mean alot to me.
sunday is that sleepy day :)
Thursday, March 20, 2008
RULE #1
myramoxiaomai from URL @ 23:59
the people:
me, my sis, my bro, kk, eve, jy, jy's two friends syafiq and eileen :) plus kun ming, bro, ts. :)) im tired. let the pics and captions tell you the story.
BRO'S HELMET. SWEE~
LIKE TRANSFORMERS SIAL~
ZHILIAN AS ALWAYS~
SOUL SISTAS. HEART HER LOADS. ONLY SHE CAN UNDERSTAND ME :) 
WHILE WAITING FOR THE REST TO COME.    SO MUCH FOR BANANA'S PHOTOGRAPHY SKILLS~
WITH THAT UGLY ELEPHANT! HAAA.  
BANANA. MY ONLY YOUNGER BRO~ 
i love my brother. but i jus cant seem to make him understand! i don know how to tell him. i don wan him to feel disappointed or sad. he has changed alot. his behaviour is way better than before and im so proud of him. and he told me it is all because he met fcukers. but i couldn possibly bring him along everytime i go out with fcukers. i don wan him to feel leftout. moreover, we are at a different level. i don wan him to learn things too early and get some bad influence from us. i don know why he love fcukers so much, but i can understand :) we are fun people! :D
but really, hope he can accept the truth and find his own friends, true friends. :))
GESSIANS OOI~
KUN=XIALAN-KIA=BOTAKHEAD
for all 3 different matters/concerns, my answer is,
I DON KNOW!
help me. dammit. i hafta think, fast. i hafta act, fast. dammit! arrrrg.
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
myramoxiaomai from URL @ 23:59
working was baddd. he was a "gentleman" indeed. my ass arr. more like gentleOLDman. nabehh. i respect him for being my so called 'senior' so i shall not be so rude to him. i couldn bring myself to say, "ehh. i don wan talk to you lehh. can don disturb me?" but i guess friday if i see him, i'll not even think of entertaining him with all his nonsense bullshit. what massage forte he has, and cook vege food for me, and meet my parents to be their friend. cheebye. i didn know if i was actually violated ehh. but thinking bac, i think i was actually being molested. FUCK MANN.
if i count this as one, then in total i was actually being molested for three fucking times! #knnbccb!!!# when i think bac, i thought, whyy was i so bloody weak at that moment, so soft hearted! NABEHHHHH! i'll never, ever let this happen again!
i hate for being misunderstood, for all the wrong reasons.
i hate the fact that im being too concerned about you guys.
i should hav minded more of my own beeswax.
i know. thanx for making me realise that.
i hate it when you don get what im tryna say.
i hate it when you fail to understand my good intentions.
i hate it when im actually being used,
and i hate it too, when i always pretended like i didn know i was being used.
i hate myself for being kinda plastic at times.
for it doesnt suit my blog add. at all.
im not being fake, or hypocritic.
i hate it when people say they like me, they miss me, when in fact,
we were never close to the extent that you should miss me the way you do.
i hate guys who desperately wan a gf and would ask you for your hand when you don even know each other at all?
FOR WHAT FUCK? ALL YOU USELESS FUCKAS!
i hate it when people judge me
for all the bad, crude language/vulgarities that i always use.
i hate myself for not being able to fulfill my old promises.
i hate myself for not being able to reach my goals.
i hate myself for not being able to fulfill my role as a
GOOD DAUGHTER, SISTER, AUNT.
i hate myself for eating too much.
i hate myself for not being disciplined enough.
i hate myself for not being able to keep up to my healthy habits.
AND I HATE IT SO MUCH
FOR THINKING
OF ALL THESE SHIT THAT I HATE.
Monday, March 17, 2008
myramoxiaomai from URL @ 18:27
pictures werent interesting enough so didn put them up. but alil bit about ytd, work was great. joyce is a very nice, goal-oriented lady. seriously, i did learn quite a few things from her. about life and stuff, and how she isnt scared when travelling alone or working in places considered as dangerous.
"jus walk briskly, head up, and mind your own business. then they wont dare disturb you. everything will be jus fine." :))
sometimes i envy her for being so busy. shes working like EVERYDAY! abit worn out, i could see, but sometimes being real busy is way better than having nothing to do at all.
after work met up with bro and ts for dinner. at 2100plus. what DINNER! ass. then met up with lesbianpartner and had tiramisu cheesecake and normal cheesecake with bro. cheebye. regretted buying tiramisu one. supa not nice! iced latte was heavenly as usual, but i miss my own handmade one. keekee. =D
had a nice talk with siaozhabor after that. :)))))) i listened to her love story i cried. she cried also larr duhh. dammit.
now i hav lotsa things i yearn to do, wanna do and HAVE to do. lets keep track. dammit.
1. im in a HUGE debt! (don ask me the amount. you guys wont be able to sleep) from 5 different sources. to settle 2 sources by 24march.
2. apply to work from home! cheebye! quick arrr!
3. badminton AND basketball every week.
4. ferris wheel! I WANT!
5. buy new clothes, makeup-set, a pair of sports shoes, new footwear for school and out!
and here comes the most interesting/shocking/absurd part: ive decided to turn to vegetarian food, except for weekends! im so loving this idea! haha.
when all of these are accomplished, then my nex big move/confession will come in. for now, i don know what to say to them, jus that im not confident to do that rightt now. in fact, i still haven decided if i really should continue doing it or not. but one thing is for sure: i still wan FINANCIAL FREEDOM.
Friday, March 14, 2008
myramoxiaomai from URL @ 12:19
"THE WORLD IS JUS THIS BIG" - by best pal
everything in this world is somehow linked. whatever bad things that happen to you will definitely lead you to a good thing. it's jus that it had to appear bad. what my sis said was indeed true, that whatever decision you take will still lead you bac to that outcome that is already predestined for you, why? cus it is already written in our Fate. now what we hafta do is jus to decide if our nex move is the right move, believe that it will make our situation better, hav
FAITH in ourselves, and then move on.
no use dwelling over what might be our mistakes, blame ourselves, blame Fate, blame the one who has made our life so miserable. in short, what im tryna say is, no use walking and walking and only come to realise that youre jus running on the spot.
MOVE! MOVE TO ANOTHER PLACE! CHEER UP! :D
LEAD YOUR LIFE LIKE HOW YOU DREAM IT TO BE. :))
it's never too late.
anyways, was watching this video ytd night before i went to bed, and surprisingly, while watching, tears rolled down my cheeks profusely! and they landed on my poor keyboard. it was really heart-wrenching, and i cried even more when i realised i hadn't been spending time with all 3 of my nephews. i wanna treat them better.
PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
STOP CHILD ABUSE. PLEASEEEEEE.. I BEG YOU.
Thursday, March 13, 2008
myramoxiaomai from URL @ 17:06
is today really thursday? it's really true that when you are so used to staying overnight, you sometimes jus couldn keep track of the time, and it seems that days pass even much more faster than you could hav ever imagined. anyways, like always, here to update about what happened YESTERDAY.
wednesday, 120308
had badminton today. altho we met quite late (supposedly at 1400hrs, then to 1600, and then really started matches at around 1700hrs) still, to me, it was quite an accomplishment for me to be able to sweat it out. all was present for the game except for siaozhabor, xialan-kia and chiobuu.
WHILE WALKING TO ERIC'S PLACE AFTER BADMINTON
  WE SAW THIS WHILE WALKING. UNIQUE INDEED?!!   
upon arrival at eric's, we once again had the hell of a time, winning and losing money. while playing, playing, playing, out of a sudden, on the sly, ts crept slowly to the desktop and attempted to play his dota. before he even started, lesbianpartner screamed at him, and asked him to come bac! wahaha. the scene was so hilarious that i couldn help but take his bloody innocent face! MWAHAHAHA. =P
then another funny thing. master became the banker and when he knew that he won, he jumped like a bloody monkey up and down and up and down and even did that in the middle of our circle!! he won quite a sum of money, tho' coins, compared to us all.
 
MY BEST PAL. SEXAY! BUT FACE BUANG! =DDDD  ERIC WAS TRYNA ACT LIKE LI NANXING WHILE SHAKING THIS THING. HAHA
 WAS LAUGHING SO LOUD AND SO HAPPILY, TILL, MY LIL' BRO LEFT THESE RED MARKS ON MY FAT THIGH. DAMMIT. BLOODY PAINFUL LAAA.
when sweetay and sweetie combine forces = siaozhabor mwahaha. think siaozhabor mus be proud of herself for being siao. anyways, best pal abit bo liao, went to mess up our hair, then took our picture! oh but my hair in the 4th pic was "styled" by bro. NABEHH. haha. cheese~ 
enough of playing. eric's mom and sisters couldn stand us, i thought. of course. supa noisy in the late night! then things happened. lesbianpartner didn wanna go bac home cus of some dispute with her mom, about her being 21 and stuff. funny. aha. angel had terrible nightmares so wanted someone to be with her at night. so both girls, who somehow look alike, went over to my place and we HAD FUN! :D
once in awhile, even when problems tend to creep behind us like nobody's business, we still hafta make ourselves happy, okayy?
lesbianpartner found out i smiled and talked in my sleep. ohwell. i dreamt of her like so many times! one vivid one: me being homo. holding hands with jasmine HD. omgomg? =p and then early in the morn, around 0800hrs, the babies made so much noise and woke us all up! ohmannn. =D
 
 
OBSESSED WITH CORNS! GREAT FINE MOTOR SKILLS THO'.
both girls stayed over at my place till like 1600plus. whole afternoon watched dvd and then "attacked" my desktop and laptop. and what was i doing? tryna catch my sleep! PANDA!! aaarg. but i was disturbed by so many people in the house, including THEM, and i was really really
T-I-R-E-D. goshh. my heart was like jumping every now and then when they jerked me up from my sleep. dammit! haha. but really nice company, girls. more of it? i really don mind. :)))
i am really healing. =DDDDD SO HAPPY FOR MYSELF! now off to help those handful ones in fcukers. hang in there my dearest ones.
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