Friday, September 28, 2007
myramoxiaomai from URL @ 01:47
wednesday, 260907
INTRODUCING .... JENG JENG JENG!! THE BIRTHDAY GURL!
hehe. okayy. ive got only one thing to be jealous of her, she still remains at 45kg when she's like already 60 years old. nohnehh ahhh!! time for me to workout WORKOUT WORKKK OUTTTT!!
POSING SIA, AUNTIE ALICE!
"don need to do work liao laa. leave till tmr. go take photo lorr" - NANCY
"take photo ahh? wait wait wait. i go put lipstick." - ALICE -_-
HERE COMES THE ZHILIAN PART. OH HELL. KILL ME!
ME, CHIA YING, SHUNAI =D
MARIA!! E VEH MARIAAAA!! =P
THE LAOJIAOS keekee : NANCY, ALICE, IRENE, RACHEL
wahh i jus realised. their names all, like so glam like that. "LITTLE WOMEN"?
and supper ended with "thank you ahh! thank you ahh!' =)))))))
HOW HOW HOW? ARE YOU THINKING WHAT IM THINKING? OF COURSE YOU ARE, CUS IM THINKING OF YOU. DAMMIT YOU BASTARD.
Tuesday, September 25, 2007
myramoxiaomai from URL @ 08:06
im angry. i really am. i don know who im angry with, mebbe at maself and some others. im mad, im frustrated, im upset, i feel like scolding them, i feel like spitting vulgarities at them no matter how people wanna look at me, i don really care! aaaaaarrrrrg. i know this isn fair for them. i know they're worried sick but heyy. you guys really didn hafta show me attitude and stuff. jus cus you guys are older and everything, you think you guys are BIGGG?! mudder. im boiling mad, so to 'cure' it, ma third nephew did a good job by helping me. =)) snapping pics of him jus makes me H-A-P-P-Y! =D 3RD NEPH, RYAN 
BIG VEHICLE, SMALL VEHICLE
JALAN JALAN THEN SUDDENLY EMO. LIKE ME SIAKKKK. =P
JALAN JALAN SOMEMORE, ALL THE WAY ....... TO ..
SEE FISH!
AND MORE ADVENTURES FOR HIM
working at tom&stef is like getting medication after a fall from the ladder.
after halfway climbing up that ladder (or even lesser or more, i don know), unexpectedly, i fell down. but at least im strong enough to get up again. you cant jus ask me to like immediately climb up the ladder bac again. thats not right, really cus im still in pain. i need to clean ma wound. the blood flowing and the pain, its indescribable. tom&stef is jus like that thing that can help me ease ma pain, for a lil' while, before im able to climb bac the ladder. are you able to understand ma situation now? i hope you do. guess what? ma wound's healing pretty soon. jus a bit more time and i'll climb up again, only this time more careful, and probably, alil' faster. you guys jus hafta gimme your support by understanding me. ;P
LIKE IT HAS BEEN SO FUCKING LONG, EVERSINCE YOU DIDN REPLY THAT SHIT. I SO DON FUCKING CARE. BUT I WOULDN KNOW HOW LONG THIS ATTITUDE OF MINE CAN LAST. I HOPE IT WILL LAST FOR-E-VER .....
Saturday, September 15, 2007
myramoxiaomai from URL @ 01:50
okayy. many things happened lately.
fasting month is here again and i feel like as if im washing away all the impurities in ma body day by day. mwahaha. sounds funny but ehh yeshh. im suddenly addicted to vegetarian food. been eating that for almost a week! ma colleague had been eating that ONLY when she had acne probs and now they are all gone!! okayy. i wan smooth, rosy, ok, (chubby) cheeks. and working during the fasting month is better ehh. its like as if time flies so fast! zoooommm. and there comes a better tomorrow. HOPEFULLY.
and yepp. disappointed with results. gpa dropped like fuck! i learnt a good lesson here. okayy. wait till nex sem comes.
and now for sse, im glad that i acty do miss sse. yes. the people, the office, the atmosphere. i wanna go bac. but im stuck 'there'. again only i can decide for maself what is best for me.
i hope cheng chuan's words are true. and yes i do hope too that our wish has finally been granted, as what youve said. i hope ma journey starts here, too. like i said, number 9, a good month therefore evrything should be falling into place. i hope for the best of course, and i really truly hope that im not jus hoping for the sake of hoping.
LETS HOPE WITH AN ACTION. =))
YOU ARR ... IM TRYING NOT TO CARE ABOUT YOU .. IGNORE ME OR WHATEVER. SLOWLY I'LL BE ABLE TO ERASE YOU FROM MA MEMORIES.
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
myramoxiaomai from URL @ 08:26
THE 'FORMAL' DAY
this is what ive missed due to that bigg word, WORK!i was impressed by how most of them look! =))
 ma abah looks like one of ma managers!! muacks! so macho! and the coat acty hid his BELLY! =)O he mus be veryyy happy mann.   left: 3rd sis with dearest mak jahright: 3rd sis with ibu & abahLOVELY!!  left: now with kak radya (the supamodel =D)right: 2nd sis, 3rd sis, & bromygawd!! ma bro looked soooooo SMART. if only he's like that for evry other day, there would be one less reason why i shouldn be at loggerheads with him! ~ =P IT'S NOT THAT I DIDN KEEP MA WORD. HAV I EVEN SAID I'D COME BAC SO SOON?
myramoxiaomai from URL @ 00:13
it was really a sad scene. i hope that hug i gave her wasnt the last hug ever. no way. it shall never be. im sure she'll be alryt. she will be well. it's true what ma father had said, He gave it to you, He'll definitely take it bac, God willing.
ma aunty, aka mummy, looked pallid, her eyes filled with sadness. i know. i could see it. altho' she tends to cover it. other than that, evrything about her seemed normal. she still joked around with us, and she had always wanted to do housework. she even went out early in the morn to buy breakfast for all of us. oh dear mummy, pls take good care of yourself. im sure you'll be alryt. you will recover. Allah will help us. =)) be strong, i know you are. LOVE YOU.
okay it's 9sep today. 0909. 9 bein ma favourite number, i believe it can really gimme a good start now. the real start. im sorry if this decision of mine may seem ridiculous to some of you, but pls accept ma apology. i think this is the best decision so far. i cant take it any longer. im only human, jus that, mebbe too over-emo. i'll be bac on 20nov, carrying a new being. i may not be able to help you identify what exactly that new being will be, but im sure you'll see something different. pardon me for being like this. forgive me for evrything. really. takaire of yourselves.
MA HEART ACHES SO BADLY, BUT IM STILL NOT ABLE TO TELL YOU HOW I FEEL. I GUESS IM STILL WAITING FOR THE RIGHT TIME. =(( WILL MISS YOU ..
Friday, September 07, 2007
myramoxiaomai from URL @ 13:26
im feeling so scared .. so guilty .. so very afraid .. really. but seriously i don know what exactly am i afraid of. i guess ma downhill is coming again. mebbe ive had enough of those uphills. but honestly, i don really feel those uphills. im jus forcing maself to smile, to be happy when indeed, the truth lies only within me.
i feel like im so screwed. really screwed. i jus feel like getting cooped up in ma house is the only thing i'd like to do now. but of course it wont solve anything. i really don know. ma heart's thumping bigg time. and ive no one to talk to about this.
i guess ma confidante is getting fed up with me. ma brother is no longer like a brother to me. and yes. im jus afraid of seeing ma besfren again.
please. please tell me whats wrong with me. i wan to start from the very beginning, but aaarg. i really don know whats best that i gotta do now. and i know no matter how hard i cry for help, no one can help me. the solution can only come from me, maself & i. =(((
YA ALLAH. OPEN UP MA MIND, SHOW ME THE RIGHT DIRECTION AND PROTECT ME FROM THE DEVILS.
Wednesday, September 05, 2007
K-STER
myramoxiaomai from URL @ 21:32
alvin, john, cc, kk & me at chinatown k-ster.
alvin - screamed his lungs out while singing!! but i thought he's got the best vocal so far
john - sang more with his nasal voice, but he sang melodiously, like as if the voice has alot of waves, up and down
well these two idiots sang with FEELINGS .. haha.
cc - sang with too low a voice!! mwahaha. FUNNY!
kk - loves to sing HIGH notes but in the end always 'cao sia'! =P
me? don even think about it. i jus sang however i could, didn even care if it was good or not.
jus so happy to sing jay's tracks. =))
today wasnt as fun as i had expected it to be. hmmm. mebbe cus ive been thinking alot while listening to them sing. been staring into space, thinking.
two very important people i do not wish to hurt, to offend. and i really hope they wont misunderstand. sighh.
yepp. was kinda pissed when we couldn hav dinner tgt. acty it wasnt about not bein able to hav dinner that i was pissed about, jus something. there was something missing, not only today, it's like EVRYTIME when im out with them. what is it? and why? God knows.
but anyways, had dinner with alvin while the rest took the same bus home. ate till damn bloody full ahhhh!! BLOATED!! ok alvin!! i hav grown bigger indeed! I KNOW! ~~~~
HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO TELL YOU GUYS? HELP ME. I REALLY DON KNOW MANN.
Monday, September 03, 2007
myramoxiaomai from URL @ 11:04
"LOOK BOTH WAYS WHEN YOU CROSS THE STREET.
LOOK BOTH WAYS WHEN YOU CROSS THE STREET.
LOOK BOTH WAYS DON MOVE YOUR FEET,
TILL YOU LOOK BOTH WAYS WHEN YOU CROSS THE STREET."
ohmann. this song has been in ma head all the time nowadays, jus cus ma nephews were always watching BARNEY BARNEY! practically evryday.
anyways sunday night movie with ma firs sis, bro-in-law, younger sis, younger bro and firs nephew was awesome! 1408. a thrilling nice horror movie like none other. like what i told ma younger sis, it's always not about the ghost that im afraid of, but those horrifying things like your eyeballs being dug out, or your hands being chopped off. i jus couldn get maself to see all those horrible stuff cus i'll imagine how painful that mus be. goshh. but YES.
i LOVE horror, terrifying, thrilling movies. as long as they are not lame ones.
ARE YOU BEGINNNG TO HATE ME? I DON BLAME YOU IF YOU DO .. BUT THIS LIL' THING CAN NEVER BE COMPARED TO OUR 10 YEARS OF FRIENDSHIP.
Saturday, September 01, 2007
myramoxiaomai from URL @ 02:20
friday the 31st
the unexpected get-together with ma fellow HeCkerC!
cus i was supposed to go down company with ah quan, but he reminded me of goin bac to gess cus he was goin bac to play bball. so yea. called up ma HeCkerC to come down with me. and didn expect to hav so much fun!
anyways we couldn enter the school cus apparently no one was there to help us sneak in through the bac gate, and i hate to see the security guards at the front gate, so we'll giv it a go some other time during other occasions.
  
so many bloody fucking candid shots! mudder!
HeCkerC remains forever .. at least in our hearts .. ^^
myra the retard, shujuan the act innocent idiot, evelyn the noisy freak & zhouhui the 'lao' golfball! =DDDD oh yes. you would never hav guessed zhouhui's age correctly, and of course not with these pictures ....
and when shunai had to go bac to work, there left the 3 of us reminiscing our past at tiong bahru park!! mudder ahh! pardon the faces! jus exercising the features.
and of course something i would do with a fren, hoping that it'd make me grow taller! at least half an inch, pleeeaassseee? =\
 
and finally the day ended with eve's and zhouhui's 'artistic' shots.
ohwell, didn exactly end there. had dinner tgt at henderson hawker (aww miss the place) and zhouhui had a chance to express out her grievances or anger about her relationship. rem gal. to maintain a healthy and everlasting relationship is never easy babes.
then went over to zhouhui's house to help her 'fix' her lappy. and then at nite i had to meet sharon at holland haagen-dazs to retrieve ma dg. haagen was as busy as hell ma goodness! and obviously they were shot of staff. call siti in? nahh. i will never go bac, unless there are better, reasonable headquarters and people-in-charge.
how do i tell you whatever's in ma heart? i don wan our frenship to be like NOW. yes i mean NOW. certainly, besfrens bein in the same 'industry' may not be a good thing after all. no doubt. and you simply don understand me. hav u changed? or hav i been the ignorant asshole all this while?
|
