bibik left for indo today. wonder how is she now with her family. hope everything goes well for her ehh. really wonder. now my double decker bed is empty again. but don feel like occupying it. scared. grrr. nex time shall tell you guys the story. anyways, heard that bibik cried so much at the airport. and dear nephs wanted to follow her bac! haha. now i asked them, WHERE'S BIBIK? know what they replied? GO WORK WORK! wahahaha. cute larr. =))
MY MAID AND MY NEPHS :)
THE TAN FAMILY :)
BIBIK WITH MY PARENTS, ME & 3RD SIS :)
i feel like giving up. i don feel right. i wanna stay away from it. but at the same time, i really wanna make a difference. those arent jus empty promises ... mannn.
went with bro tdy for job interview. sibehh buang! but HAROLD & KUMAR was damn hilarious! right right? funny to the max! MASTER! you would love this movie! wahahaha. you watch firs then you'll know whyy.
and i found a video clip on zijie. sorry ahh fren. i don know how come i suddenly came across your video! but your joke was funny! better than that huang bi ren ghost story! that was scary! this one was hilariously funny. but whyy like everything associated with you is all nehneh? rem nehneh ball? WAHAHAHA. :) okok. take a look.
went for dance again ytd. we didn do Please Dont Stop the Music cus instructor was sick. but we did a choreography by daniel! haha. the moves were kinda hard to perfect them, but yeaaa practice makes purrrfect! haha. came bac home ytd aching all over! but after dance ytd, daniel's friend came and talked to us all, shared with us. rash is the name, and he somehow inspired me. really.
dancing is all about your self confidence, your determination and perseverance.
he shared alil bit about his life, how he broke his nose and twisted his jaw while attempting to do a flip back? and how he got scars and bruises, and how he was embarrassed and humiliated bac then when he screwed up the dance. and he could actually stand straight, and bend his body to the bac, with his head touching the floor, and then come bac up again.
AMAZED! WOW. JUS WOW! one look at him, and none can see that he's actually a nice guy. usually guys with tattoos don giv you a good impression ehh? but all my tattoo friends are nice people. :))) really i don judge a book by its cover.
so yea. while he talked ytd, i realized he was actually slowly burning the fire of passion for dance deep inside me. since young i love to dance, and i did perform and join competitions during those primary sch times. jus that sometimes i really hav no confidence when i don get certain moves right. and i worry how others might look at me. so i only dance for the sake of it but inside me, i do admire those people who can dance for competitions or performances. i wan dance to be a part of my life. :) i think D3 is THE CALL.
rare times i blog about my family, relatives or so. always had been blogging about myself, or fcukers, or friends and etc. now lemme spare some room for my dear rocky family. :) (oh by the way, the name rocky family originates from my mother's name, ROKIAH. so there! we thought of NOKIA family but like what the heck? haha.) anyways, on the 20th of april, a sunday, i went to my cousin's wedding. mann. time flies really fast, and more and more of my cousins are getting married, which only proves one point: we're getting older! haha. sooooon, real soon, and my 3rd sis will be next! but i don wanna get married! haha. it was quite fun actually, helping out at the wedding. we 5 sisters of the family wore the same costume, and all the fathers and boys wore the same polo-T, while all the aunties or mothers wore the same pink/red costume. we really felt like we belong. :)) 30plus heads all united as one big family! haa. so my job was to jus clean the tables and clear away the empty plates and cups. =))
MY COUSIN & HIS WIFE!
this was the firs time i saw a wedding ceremony accompanied with sooooo many bikers laaa! ehhh bro, MAT REMPIT! you should hav come larrr. then you can join them! wahaha. and what some of the guys did was to actually move their bikes in such a way to draw a circle on the road using the petrol. haa. they should hav written something with that. but it was an eye opener to hav bikers with you during your wedding. the whole estate came out of their flats to "watch". haha.
TRY LOOKING AT THIS. ALL ARE MY COUSIN'S FRIENDS.
THE GROOM PAYING HIS RESPECTS TO HIS ELDERS. :)
WE 3 SISTERS AND COUSINS! :))
my ABAH singing HINDI song! my aunt so cute. gave him "flower".
MY BELOVED ONES :) THEY ALWAYS TOUCH MY HEART ...
tmr my maid will be leaving for indo le. sighhh. and today is the last day i will be able to see her. cus tmr got school. cant send her to the airport. awww. will miss her. im sure she'll miss me too! haha. she loves my laughter and crappy jokes! i know! haha. and tmr, there will be a family gathering. from 14 of us, left 13, and now 12 in the house! i don wish for the number in this house to slowly decrease! no way! even right now im all alone in the house. so siann. so lonely. haha. after tmr would be the start. each of us girls would hafta do most of the housework! i'll be my abah's secretary! i'll write down all the chores to be divided to each of us! keekee. ehh. i choose washing the dishes horrr. ibu already chose to wash and iron clothes. okok. still more to come. sweep and mop floor. hang and dry clothes. take care of aaron, ryan. and the list goes on and on. i hafta make myself clear. i hafta know my role as a daughter, a sister, an aunt, a friend, a student, a worker. many more roles actually. many more commitments.
TAKE CARE BIBIK! HOPE EVERYTHING GOES WELL FOR YOU AND YOUR FAMILY! :))
with a yummy chocolate muffin and a glass of light coke, here i am again typing away. jus reached home. dammit. sat and sun seemed like a day to me. not two days. felt like only one day has jus passed. sat morn working, and then met up with lesbianpartner, siaozhabor, bro and GUESS WHO? ts my son!!! wahahaha. he came bac become more stupid liao. people say run 10km take 20min he said he only ran 10m!!! wahahah. funny sia he. the five of us then went to wala wala, played lotsa games, forfeited with some not-so-nice asahi drinks. ok i thought i was going home when the clock struck 0100. even told my mom "coming home alr!" in the end, went to tiong after lesbianpartner went home. met up with botakhead #1 and then GOSSIPS everywhere! kun talked till so damn funny!
anyways, jus tried my luck that night and decided to call NGEOW ZIJIE. yes that supastar guy who has changed soooo much since sec sch days in terms of confidence level and sef-esteem. haha.
ME: HELLO! ZIJIE ARRR! ZJ: WHO ARE YOU? ME: YOUR FREN LARR! WAN COME DOWN? ZJ: EHH BYEBYE! BYEBYE! BYEBYE! ME: EHHHHH WAIT WAIT WAIT! ITS ME LARR! MYRAAAA! ZJ: OH! HELLO! ITS YOU ARR? YA? YOU CALLED ME ARRR. :)
WAHAHAHAHAH. the moment he knew it was me his cold tone changed! damn funny sia. it was alr like 0400 but zijie felt like playing bball! and i thought i was gonna go home. in the end i went to play too. grrrr. with jasmine, siaozhabor and supastar. wahaha. damn steam sial still play. nabehh. and like those days bac in sec sch, zijie accidentally threw the ball and it sorta "knocked" my breasts. nehneh siaaa. since then, whenever i touched the ball he would say, "nehneh ball!". grrr. oh had a great time listening to ghost stories of gan eng seng school! and also huang bi ren!! grrr. scary sia. really scary. after the game, i was forced to dance by zijie and jasmine! NEX TIME MEET UP THEN DANCE LARR KAY? =P
didn realise it was alr 0600plus! cabbed home. ITS SUNDAY MORNING!! HAHA. SIAO. wasnt exactly sleepy but after bathing and then looking at my laptop screen, WAHH. sibehh steam! how to go work? in the end reported to work at 1400 instead of 1100! cuckoo. but work was cool. all the way wasnt really feeling sleepy but while on the way to holland to meet lesbianpartner, sibehh steam! dinner with her was so "happening". many things to talk about, many clarifications to make. my side all settled. haha. in the end, lesbianpartner felt like meeting eric to clear things up! so, cabbed to tiong! cheebye. like buang sial. from kallang go holland then go tiong. grrr. always these three places. bro came along too, and master was alr at eric's house. so things were kinda settled. :) chatted till 0030plus then cabbed again!!
NABEHH. CAB CAB CAB! GRRRR.
ok better go koon now. lack of 16hours of sleep! :)
i could see how sad you were. it was hidden in your eyes. the way you talked, your tone of voice, already gave you away. you were not feeling alright, absolutely. at least, during that period of time, that particular moment. hang in there k? still got us! :)
okayy. found this pic in my phone. it was taken few months bac. and it was bro's masterpiece, plus a little of my handwriting and zhouhui's. MASTER, nah! this is specially for you. no matter what, you will still resemble SHOW, at least, BEFORE you go for nat service like soon. haha. when you botak alr, please don say you TheSingaporeShow arr! now say still can. =X
today unexpectedly met up with bro and lesbianpartner. bro larr. fucking funny sial. alr wished him lucks for his audition, in the end, couldn even reach his destination cus none of us knew where the hell is noel building? wahaha. travelled from 1500plus, only to msg me at 1700plus saying that he didn go for audition cus he couldn find the place! so at night went for dinner with him, and i asked him to ask lesbianpartner along too.
though i feel i hav loads to do, i jus chose to be stubborn, or rather, i preferred to rest awhile, chill firs, before i started doing things that i should be doing. so there. nua-ing can you say? under void deck.
LESBIANPARTNER TOOK THIS. I THOUGHT THIS WAS WORTH THE POST. HAHA. FUNNY FACE!
bro discovered something. he found something that could be turned into an ash tray. kinda cool so i threw my ashes and cigarrette butts into that something. creative huh. sorry bangla. :(
lemme tell you a little story. after lesbianpartner went home, bro and i had nowhere to go, nowhere in mind, but going home was like out of the question cus still early!! haven 0000hrs lehh. went to walk walk walk, 7-11 etc, then proceeded to the bus stop and we sat down and talked and talked and smoked and talked and smoked and talked talked talked. listened to bro's story during his sec sch days, and then his impression of some people, his opinions etc. learnt something from him. okayy. now i know. so we continued talking like nobody's business, and this nearly cost him his bus! wahahah. okok. he missed 145, the bus he was supposed to take, and little did we know that that was the last bus alr! wahahah. so idiotic larr we. can go home still sit down there talk cock! heng he could take another bus to somewhere near his house. wahh! buang sial. but really funny. ohhya. he bumped into his friend there, and his friend is from sp, and being my bro, he thought that i was all along studying in sp! mudder. so much for
being my bro.
HAH! :) and he started asking like "you guys got see before? you see him before?" see what shitt. not the same campus see lan arr. even same campus doesn mean will get to see also arr! hahahah.
and this stubborn little kid, already injured his bloody leg due to riding on the bike, hadnt enough of injuries. his leg wasnt fully recovered, and now he's like gonna play bike again. nabehh. despite the doc's advice not to ride bike for a month, he decided to defy him. mann. HAHA.
okayy. im a dead piece of meat. school doesn suck jus that i suck in getting to do school stuff. oh and one thing. i really hope the rest of fcukers besides me and bro and kun, will agree to celebrate eric's bday in Play! i think? do something different. we hav done everything tgt except to club tgt cus most don really like. engage in something different jus this once can? after sakae go club kayy? pleaseeeeeeeee :)
it turned out totally opposite! whatever i predicted or guessed, didn happen. instead, i felt much more warmer being there as compared to last time. in the end, im bac to being under mr song's care. haha. what he said was true. let go of the past. we cant change the past, but we can make a difference for our future. i know its hard for me right now, especially to start all over again. but, i shall giv it a try! :) it's .... EM-MAX! :))
ohh mann. im so drained nowadays. really drained. nobody could see but i could feel it. dammit. so many things to do, where do i start? grrrrr. ohh btw today while i was at commonwealth mrt station, going down the escalator, a middle-aged man in front of me suddenly turned to me and smiled at me. the hilarious part was when i looked at him and frowned, and then turnd to look behind me to check if he was actually smiling to someone else! WAHAHA. sadly, no one behind me. then while walking to the bustop, he purposely walked slowly so i could catch up with him? and he kept turning bac! disgusting. and so i walked even SLOWER! wahaha. heyy. it was really scary ok. had encountered these kinda men soooo many fucking times. dammit.
ok. seems like i hafta plan a new schedule for myself. every single day, there's bound to hav something i hafta attend to. how do i fit in things like, em-max? running? ech club? dance? malay lessons? cuckooooooo.
[i couldn find him! nowhere at all. not virtually, nor in person. i'll jus wait for miracles to happen, or Fate. wahaha.] Tuesday, April 22, 2008
myramoxiaomai from URL @ 23:59this phrase catches so much of my attention:
LIVE FOR WHAT'S ETERNAL :) :) :)
think about it, i have not been preparing much for it. ive always been chasing for the best in life: wealth, health, studies, enjoyment and such, that i fail to realize, what's gonna happen to you after death? life is only temporary. prepare for whats next, cus indeed, life is short and, unpredictable. and i realize i haven been keeping up with my religion, study it and stuff like that. i shall start :)
life's pretty packed nowadays, but im beginning to enjoy it much =)) every single day, theres' bound to be something. to me, work is forever awesome. im enjoying it, but am really looking forward to try out that work-from-home thingy. =)) jus yesterday, went to see how D3 works. it was fine. people okayy, programme so-so. i was only attracted to the dance moves choreographed by bryan! and because the song is Please don't Stop the Music, i was so enthu about it! i love the song and the moves were great. but somehow, i hav doubts about joining D3, though it would be great to be dancing every week. hmmm. wonder wonder.
am nervous to meet everyone in Sunshine tmr. really nervous. it has been soooo fucking long! and im even more nervous about my answer. will i still continue in this industry? i really don know. but somehow im determined to let go. not that im giving up, it's probably jus not within my reach at the moment. i hav other things to settle firs, to concentrate on. i cant juggle so much. i don wanna end up attaining bad results for everything that im involved in. i hate that feeling. shall see how.
now looking forward to hav workout sessions with peg and the rest, eric's birthday, necklace for "the darlinggs", apply for that online job and moreeeee! :) :) :)
posts about camp will be up like later later later! :)))
[will i ever see him again?]Monday, April 21, 2008
a night to remember. a night to ponder. a night when i discovered alot. really alot. shocking, indeed it was shocking. but whats most important, ive decided to put those all behind me. look forward to my future cus nothing like that shall bother me and my life. :)
master was hilarious, dancing with an aunty! haha. bro was great at his moves. bleahx. expected actually. waiting for more nights like this, but better nights of course!
ok! motivated for more get-down-to-do-school-stuff! =))
again, updates from long ago. haha. oh. PLEASE TAKE NOTE. by right, things happened from bottom to top. if you wanna read chronologically, you hafta read from bottom to top! haa. still hav loads to blog about! not that i HAV TO, but yaaa. i still wanna. :)) till then!
THE FCUKERS FAM!
like FINALLY! we could take a pic as a whole family! oh not forgetting jian hua our guest of honour! wahahaha. :)
WHILE ON OUR WAY TO PASIR RIS PARK. #4 PIC: CAN YOU SEE PONTI IN THE REFLECTION? :P
went to sentosa for fcukers timeout tgt. the purpose was to enjoy as much as we could before ts go for his service. woots~ one by one, all the males in fcukers will be going for ns. firs was kun, then now ts, and soon will be master. and then giant and bro. wow. time flies. anyways, i was having a really really good time under those cold and cosy, soft sand. really. i jus felt like SLEEEEEPING. :))
steamboat with senior senior crew, senior crew, crew and yani! :) vonnie's still the same, tall and stuff, and most importantly, we both are still JAY CHOU'S NUMBER 1 FANS! wahahaha. hansheng looks alil' different with his longer hair. haha. it seems like he has a looooong face! haha. but he said that was an indication that he has slimmed down! okayy. haa. kelvin did slim down laaa duhh. ns lehh. never slim down then jialat liao. then theres ende, kianhong, jason, panchuen and dearest sista, yani!
ok. my firs post with outdated pictures! haha. cant remember when was it. should be last month haha. a day to remember definitely. when the word SLUT was repeated so many fucking times. when two good brothers were seen at loggerheads with one another. when i enjoyed being the mediator! WAHAHA. but before meeting fcukers up, had a nice chat with cc. i understood what he said bac then. but now, i don think im up to it. ohh shits.
CC WAS LIKE WTH? "SO PAISEHH. JUS BUY AN APPLE AND AN ORANGE!"
MY YOUNGER BRO AKA BANANA! ;D
FIRS TIME WE BOTH HAD PICS TGT ALONE! REALLY! AINT KIDDING! :)
now heres another day, at work. where i find JOY in doing certain things. i simply love this job. really really.
THE WAREHOUSE :)
BREAK!!! =P
now moving on to, TODAY! haha. firs up, HMS came in CHAMPION for the telematch today! wahaha. to me, it was kinda unexpected. really. but then again, i told honeyy, "mebbe he was there, thats whyy!" haha. crap larr of course. and ming xiu seemed lunatic for the firs time! HAHA. nex up, EYE TREATMENT! nothing much. not much difference. but made a new friend, 4 years older than me. haha. she helped me with her excellent service! haa. i felt so relaxed, so cosy that even after the treatment was over, i requested to stay inside and sleep for awhile. :)) for half an hour! really great feeling! thanx honeyy for the recommendation! oh! had a great time with you today too! talking about errrk hair? yea hair. which kinda hair, you make your own guess. :D anyways, while i closed my eyes, i saw his countenance. kept seeing his bloody image! haha. and his hair was dyed AGAIN! i thought it was nice though. haha. nahh honeyy. i wont colour the same colour. WAHAHA. shit mann. im being sucha bitch. no. my emotions are being sucha bitch! dammit.
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