Sunday, November 30, 2008
myramoxiaomai from URL @ 08:36
im still not satisfied with my skin at all.
i long for some unique change.
a unique change, yet simple
and clear. guess ive to go hunting
for the right skin some other time.
this is called fate.
this mus hav been fate.
everything that happens right now,
made me feel, that im definitely not wrong.
but why? i know,
that everything happens for a reason.
ive not yet come to the ending,
but im afraid to know what this ending will be.
it's been exactly a month.
one fucking month.
november rain has it,
that we hav never talked,
we hav never met,
we hav never seen.
and im confusing myself.
cus i don really know why i did it.
im lost.
and i really hope to find myself.
deep inside, it hurts.
and i hav no idea how much more i can endure
Saturday, November 29, 2008
myramoxiaomai from URL @ 22:59
im such a goondoo lahh! i jus found out a minute ago that i had a blog under this email: bmw_mudderhell_9@hotmail.comwtf? and in that blog there was only one post. was about that "tragedy" in haagen-dazs which made me really upset! when i reflected bac, it seems so funny. i shouldn hav gotten upset over such trivial matter. so stoopid.
THIS WAS AARON ON WED. TOO SLEEPY THAT HE COULD SIMPLY SLEEP LIKE THAT!
KAT'S FRIED CHIC & MY KOREAN CHARBOILED 
above was on thursday, when kat and i decided to try BBQ CHICKEN in West Coast Plaza over NEWYORK NEWYORK! the food looks delicious righhhtttt.
the people who work there are in pink uniforms! kat's favourite. =D
and on friday, went for our "pasar" research at sengkang! imagine, still having muscle aches and cramps due to napfa, and wearing formal with uncomfortable footwear, walking around sengkang and buangkok, under the scorching sun! nabehh! i had a terrible time, especially walking up and down steps and flights of stairs, and even had difficulty crossing the road! and mel went laughing out loud! naughty sehh. cus she didn take napfa. but her laughter was so cute that she made me laugh too. :))
i took photos of my girls
and they looked really funny! had a good laugh mann. especially when
peg posted her grouchy comments on her photos in fb! hahah!
nex pasar research, we shall wear, comfortable t-shirt and shorts/pants sports shoes/slippers sunglasses/shades caps/raincoats and no heavy bags and plenty of H20!
TO PEG!
DON WORRY. I DIDN POSE THAT SO-CALLED CANT-MAKE-IT PIC OF YOURS! SEE? SO NICE RIGHT ME? =D
TAKE A GOOD LOOK AT KAT'S POSE! LOL 
MY EMO THREESOME
 THIS WAS MEL WITH HER BROKEN SHOE!  THIS WAS WHEN WE HAD OUR BREAK AT THE "PLAYGROUND"  THIS WAS PEG WHEN SHE FELT PHOBIC ABOUT THOSE BLACK CATERPILLARS
THIS WAS KAT'S TACTIC OF PROPELLING HER ARMS TO HELP HER WALK FASTER! 
THIS WAS KAT'S ARTWORK. WTH 
THIS WAS US AFTER THE 3HOUR WALK! TIRED SIOTTT!  
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so many things to do,
so many shit to think about, to solve, to ponder about, to worry about. yet they still cant occupy me enough to forget you, or at least to stop me from thinking about you. oh crap!
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
myramoxiaomai from URL @ 07:28
jus gotten some random pics from pinky!!
haa. how i wish every night is like that night. okayy im thinking too much.
but seriously, i cant wait to club again. peg, 4th or 6th? or both dates? haha!
i really really need a break from iep!! =S
  and yes. we looked like chefs but these are shower caps! yea entry tags for the children. i know i looked damn tiredddd. anyways, yes this was ytd when we stayed bac in the childcare till 1045pm! cool shitttt. thanx for your concern.
myramoxiaomai from URL @ 04:16
its 419am already and stubborn me still refuses to sleep.
and ive to wake up like 730 later and reach school by 9!
bloody hell.
bloody iep squeezing all my brain juice,
tearing off my skin, ripping off my watery flesh,
sucking all my blood, taking away all my energy!
really. im fucking tired. very very very (x infinity) tired!
ive got nth to blog acty. i jus feel like typing.
im worried. im fucking worried. i know ive disappoint my father.
i don know what to do right now. it seems like i cant turn to anyone.
i hafta bear the consequences alone. i hate this feeling.
but it always comes to me once in awhile. why?
i don wanna share this with anyone.
i don feel like.
i jus wish this problem will be solved soon :(
aiya. heck.
friday went macs to eat late dinner with kat.
and heres my ugly mega mac. seriously, ive failed.
TOO BIGGGG!!
talking about food, my brother was exceptionally nice to me:)
he bought me fried chic wing, fries, and chips jus now.
i didn ask for it yaknow.
that's really rare of him :)
keekee. love him!
ok im better off to sleep now.
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i cant listen to pimp mode anymore,
but i would always force myself to.
listening to that song makes me think of you,
of the old memories.
of everything we've done tgt.
i couldn stand it,
that life is much different for us now.
it's like we're strangers :(
but i know, partly, im the one who
has chosen this path.
i shouldn complain.
i shouldn regret.
but i really hope to heal.
yet the wound's not healing.
i may not show it,
but my heart aches for you badly.
my heart aches when youre in pain.
but i feel so helpless cus i cant do anyth
to help you at all.
im so useless:(
pleaseeeee.
show me the light.
IMISSYOU.
Thursday, November 20, 2008
myramoxiaomai from URL @ 22:05
IM HAVING FUGGING MUSCLE ACHES FROM MY UPPER THIGHS ALL THE WAY UP TO MY SHOULDERS.
MY FEET STILL FEEL TIREDDDDD TIRED TIREDDDDDDDDDDDD!
I HAV A BRUISE LIKE JUS UNDER MY RIB CAGE. I DON KNOW WHAT CAUSES IT.
MY EYE LIDS FEEL VERY HEAVY ALL THE TIME, ESPECIALLY TODAY.
FUCKKK.
ANYWAYS, BAI. HERE IT IS.
The rules & regulations:
1) Each player of this game starts off with 10 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself.
2) People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 10 weird things/habits/little know facts as well as state this rule clearly
3) At the end, you need to choose 10 people to be tagged & list their names
4) No tagging back.
1) my tears will start welling and then eventually roll down my cheeks
when i laugh. yea. i cry when i laugh. and believe it or not, MOST of the time,
i laugh when i cry too!
2) when i club, my sole purpose is to drink till im drunk (as in overly high)
before i head down to the dance floor. thats all. so yes, i'll keep on drinking
and drinking till i feel im in the "right" condition to start dancing. so, if you
happen to club with me, protect your jug of alcohol cus i might jus grab yours.
[of course i'll politely ask firs :)]
3) before i sleep, i'll put my phone by my ear and play my favourite songs,
then listen to them and fantasize about things that will make me happy, before i finally doze off. and then by the time i get up the nex day, i'll get pissed off when my phone turns flat. i'll get even more pissed when i happen to wake up late and ive no time to charge my phone! means for the whole day that im out, im stuck with a dead phone!
4) when im in a good mood/crazy mode, i can look at anybody (yes, jus anybody, any
passerby) and start laughing at them! not that im mean, it's jus that i think they look funny at that point in time! weird ehh. i can jus laugh about anything under the sun.
5) if you consider this weird, usually i would blog right after any event that has happened and which i feel is good to blog about. take clubbing for example, even how late the time was, and how sleepy/cranky i was, i would still blog about whatever happens during clubbing, if i think it's worth the mention. even if it was 6am in the morning and i hafta reach school at 9am without sleeping, i will still blog. i don blog about it like the nex day or sth cus by that time, i might not hav the "feel" to blog about it anymore. =p
6) yes im a narcissist. whatever you call me, i'll still do it. know what.
yea. snap multiple x10000000 pics of myself, with different kinda face
expressions, and then going through the process of selecting the pics i like,
then delete the rest, then edit the ones i wanna keep, then decor or
photobucket them, then post wherever i feel like posting them. i don know.
i jus feel happy doing it. :)
7) when no one is at home, i would blast my player to the loudest volume possible
and start dancing to my favourite rnb songs. IN THE KITCHEN!! HAHA!
8) i mus, mus, mus hav my phone with me when i bathe. cus, i like to play my fav songs, again, in the loudest volume possible (not very loud anyway cus my phone
damn lousy) and start singing and dancing while bathing! so yes you can imagine how fugging long i always take before i finally get out of the bathroom =X
9) what do you call it? a kaypo? or over-friendly? but yea, when i think someone has an interesting character/life, i would try to make friends with that person, usually girls. haa. so yea, within a school, i may jus know jus about ANYBODY, any acquaintance. but it stops there. jus HIBYE frens. only some will acty become my frens, and a couple of them will eventually become my goodfrens :))
10) lastly, most of you should know this weirdest thing about me.
THAT I CUT MY HAIR MY OWNSELF!! not one time, but it has been about 5 times already,
right girls? haha. i don mind taking the risks jus to experiment with different kinds of hairstyles.
HMMM. after blogging these 10 things, i feel that i acty hav more than 10 weird things/habits/little known facts about myself! ohmann. am i really a weirdo? HAHA.
anyways, i'll tagggggggggg ermmmmmmmmmm
nana, bel, honeyy, nat, yawen, eudora, jasmine
and the whoever whoever whoever :))
myramoxiaomai from URL @ 03:08
WEDNESDAY, 191108
LADIES NIGHT AT THE ARENA
wahh sehh. supa worth it lahh.
free entry, free flowwww :)
although it was only lychee martini, still worth it.
didn know how many shots i took ah.
quite alot. been going to the bloody bartender to get those free drinks =X
great company with my ech girls:)
once again, happy belated HONEY & BELBEL!
hope you guys had a blast mann!
06dec! PHUTURE! =D
WITH THE BDAY GIRLS:) SMOOCHES!
SABO HONEYY!
WITH 1ST BDAY GIRL! LOVES~  SECOND BDAY GIRL! MUACKS!  WITH A01 GIRLS =)  B02 GIRLS ;P  GIRLS' NIGHT OUT! =P  BEFORE CLUBB :P
TOAST!
TOILET BREAKKKK :)
ive had soooooooooo much fun dancing with my dear girls:)
till my feet hurts ALOT nowwww!
but it was all worth it.
i MISS PLAY so much though :( im serious.
okay i should be sleeping now fuck.
later 1000hrs still needa go centre for IEP!
cant wait for IEP to be over!!
counting down to 6dec!
BYE GIRLS. AND GUYS :))
Thursday, November 13, 2008
myramoxiaomai from URL @ 21:30
31ST OCTOBER!
ZHERONG'S LAST DAY!
finally got my pics with my son.
this little 3 year old adorable, smart boy calls me
MUMMY MUMMY! whenever i asked him "who am i?"
i miss him loaddddddddddS!
PRIZE GIVING CEREMONY!
AND TODAY, 13NOVEMBER!
WOOHOOO!!
getz-p was great fun!
especially us girls wearing pyjamas and tying up our hair like that! i love how we made the classroom so cosy and comfortable. jus one word, FUN:) at the same time, we sure did learn sth from planning this prog. i simply love my class. but yea, we're gonna be going our separate ways soon. SLOWWWLEEEEE KAY? HAHA!
B02 MY LOVES :D SAY ALOHA!! SAY OHANA!! WAHAHAHA!
WE, EMO FAMILY :)  GIRLS IN PYJAMAS!
PREPARATIONS :):) PLUS D01 GIRLS
FUNFUNFUN:)))
  WHILE EATING! YUMMY! :) CANDIDS AND US:)
______________________________________________ I DON WANNA HANGOUT WITH SUCHA FUGGING RETARD. PERIOD.
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