Thursday, May 31, 2007
DRIFTED APART .. when can we be like before again? =(
myramoxiaomai from URL @ 12:42
APOLOGIES. APOLOGIES TO ALL.
especially to ma dearest soulmate, ma dearest sodium, NANA.
i know how it feels, when u ask me out, and i couldn b with u.
these past few days, thought could meet u up, but i was wrong.
i thought we could meet up at least in the company, but nahh, we didn.
cus i was too busy with ma network.
im sorry nana. im truly sorry. and u asked me out to study tgt, but again i turned u down.
im not sure how ure feeling ryt now, but i hope ure alryt.
i promise u after i close ma gps, i'll spend most of ma free time with u yea?
cus i love u too dear sodium!!
takaire ok? =))
now apologies to evelyn and company.
for not bein able to hang out with u guys tdy. u noe this day is a crucial day for me.
i cant afford to waste anymore time.
others might be enjoyg this public holiday, but i wish to be different.
sorry guys. im very sorry.
ive drifted apart from mostly EVRYONE! EVRYONE!
nana [soulmate] - both too busy with schoolwork, sse & so we couldn meet up
evelyn [HeCkerC] - shes busy with her jc, and me with poly and sse, & when shes into shopping, im so not.
zhouhui [HeCkerC] - shes busy with her ite, and we seldom contact
shujuan [HeCkerC] - shes ma buddy, yet evasince like months ago, we didn contact at all. goshh. i miss u~~
khai kit [bro] - hes busy with his basketball competition coming up, and schoolwork. never even chat in msn, sms, nor talk on the phone.
qing quan [advisor] - hes busy with basketball competition already started, and poly too. rare times we sms.
rani [marlboro supplier/whities] - i feel we jus cant click ryt now. i realize u prefer to be with them. im sad.
mel [whities] - only contact about poly stuff. i wonder.
kat [whities] - we're like in two diff worlds. altho u live like nex block, i feel ure very far away from me.
haagen-dazs mates - i miss u all. but im in contact with NONE! i miss u all alot alot lot!! ='((
SIGHH. i hope u guys are doin well in ur life. i hope to be able to get in contact again with u guys cus i really really miss our old times tgt!! TAKAIRE & WISH U GUYS ALL THE BEST.
im alone in this world. i jus feel that way. im all alone.
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
myramoxiaomai from URL @ 23:59
 please take a good look at the two pictures above. how are they alike?! mwahaha. it was yvonne and company's turn to carry out activities for the whole lecture group for SAM and the activity they carried out was a simple but a FUN one! and this activity made me realize one thing very interesting: THAT I AM AN ALIEN!! or should i say, ALIEN represents ME? haha. ma whole whities clique was talking about me to the whole lecture group, and they were saying i hav all the qualities of an alien!!
1. ma laughter kills. 2. jus like the alien which invades, when i invade, or when i talk, evryone tends to listen to me 3. i hav biggg eyes jus like the alien 4. jus like the pic of the alien above, ma hands wont 'sit still', cus i tend to whack people when i laugh! 5. i live in a planet
above are all the reasons ma clique were thinking of, and acty there were more but i kinda forgotten! somehow, i tend to agree, yes indeed im an alien. is that why people call me AH LIAN? bleahx. problems, conflicts, difficulties. is that all that u can see? always remember behind all these, lies OPPORTUNITY. take it or leave it. it all depends on how much u can endure & persevere through. - Myra, 2007
myramoxiaomai from URL @ 00:38
met up with SIS WAI YESTERDAY (monday, 280507) before goin to school. was really glad to hav met her!! she does look the same. hardly any changes. still looks cute, and very studious. smart ass lahh she! keekee. had a real nice talk with her but couldn exactly reminisce on our old times spent together. cus i had to leave!! hee. but we still do hav the same taste. was asking her wad she wanna eat for lunch at mos burger and true enough we both bought the same thing: TERIYAKI CHICKEN BURGER SET. =)) ohh and the person who took our order caught ma attention. he was somehow disabled, couldn talk properly, kept stammering and it took him verrrryyy long to repeat our order! but it was ok laa. =D then went to school. had a great time sitting beside rani, talking cock. haha. lynn the DRAMA MAMA!! haha. she's a nice lecturer la to me. stop complaining rani! then after school went strait to company. i was sleeping in the bus and even when ive reached the interchange, i was still sound asleep till the bus driver woke me up!! i was like at the far end of the interchange!! gawd. felt so paisehh laa. oh and dear biatchPARTNER was sharing with me her probs again. rem biatch: be the stronger person, ask him about his probs. ask him to share with u. thats part & parcel of bein in a relationship. and if he says he loves u, he does. learn to trust him ya? mutual trust is important! okok. i'll go sleep now. tryin to change ma habits, ma routine. hee. IM BREAKING THE HABIT. nites evryone!
Sunday, May 27, 2007
myramoxiaomai from URL @ 17:49
only managed to upload these pictures of the children COTTON BUDDING!! haha
their cutting skills were superb! seriously! =))
okok. acty jus ended doin some schoolwork so thought of uploading these. i stil hav alot of other things to do mann. ok. where to start? HELP MEEEEEEEEEE!! GP!! GP!! GP!!
STUCK
myramoxiaomai from URL @ 03:36
 rem how we're sooo bonded and united? one for all, all for one! =))
recently had soooo much problem within our whities clique. only those more sensitive ones are much aware of this. it's true that the unexpected incident had taught us alot of things, and had united and bonded us B02 people. but soon after, conflicts amongst us step in again. i hope i can bring evry single one of us together and talk.
school's one thing. now about SSE. i'd better work harder and giv off ma 100% to achieve wad i wan mann. i don feel it, that im putting a 100%! and the feeling SUX.
i mus close gp!
i can close gp!
i will close gp!
anyway jus got ma hair bleached. gawd. didn expect to do anyth with ma hair but bro had some spare of bleach so he decided to throw them onto ma hair! and now ma hair's all dry and ORANGE. boo. wait till they see it. goshh.
oh. some people are jus too stuck up, they jus don realize it.
WAKE UP BITCH.
Thursday, May 10, 2007
reality truly hurts
myramoxiaomai from URL @ 21:32
i dunno wads running through ma mind ryt now. i suddenly forgot the date tdy. oh. fortunately i rem i had wished ma third sista 'happy birthday' earlier in the morn ard 2AM. ok. its the 10th tdy.
im sad. im depressed. im tired. i feel so weak. yes a weakling, khai kit. i feel so lifeless, listless, BLANK. last sunday, ma grandma's death came as a total shock to me. and nights after till tdy, i couldn get to sleep. yepp. i imagined shes there beside me, near me. and i kept shivering. and ytd morn, ma beloved fren, min loo passed away. another shocking news for me. and i realised, i reli couldn take it anymore.
WADS LIFE? life is jus some kind of 'entertainment' for u here, in this world. evryone has to leave one day, and has to answer to God. thoughts are running wildly in ma head. why? why? why death? why am i facing this? why am i losing ma loved ones, one after another, and at sucha fast rate? and wad exactly has happened to me? i reli don hav the answer. rani told me i look like a drug addict. alot of people told me i reli NEED to sleep more. ma sis told me i look so pale that i reli scared her outta her wits. why myra? PULL URSELF TGT! thats wad ive always told maself. and i reli hope i can. problems are surrounding me. circling me, flying around me. regarding family, SSE, ma grandma, min loo, ma schoolwork. evrythg's so messed up and so far, ive only revealed it to u, dear blog. yes. be honoured. sighh.
MIN LOO.
i rem the firs time i got to know u was from FOC CAMP last year. we were fated to be in the same group, OANNNES 2. and then slowly i gotta know u. even betta, i knew u were in ECH. again as Fate has decided, our paths crossed again. since u were from kent ridge sec, we became even closer cus of common topics to talk about the school and the people we know there. and then i brought u in to the HAAGEN-DAZS FAMILY. yet again, Fate has brought us tgt. i rem vividly how we spent time tgt at the RAKU RESTAURANT.
DEAREST MIN LOO.
i thank u for bein sucha dear fren to me. honestly, u never know how much i treasure our frenship. thanx for bein there for me, for that x'mas letter and our photo that u had laminated for me. for accompanying me to FOC meeting that day, for being there to study with me last year in the library during our holidays. I RELI RELI RELI MISS U BADLY MIN LOO! im so sorry i didn talk to u much when u approached me on tuesday. i reli regret it! why couldn i see the pain in your eyes? why couldn i feel your problems? why wasnt i sensitive enough?
no matter wad, i'll always treasure our happy memories tgt. be it working tgt, go out tgt, study tgt, takin pics tgt, talk cock tgt. I LOVE EVRY MOMENT OF IT. and i wan u to know that u'll always be in ma heart. i apologise if i had ever offended u in any way. IM SORRY, MIN LOO. for acting so cold towards u evrytime u approached me in msn. I RELI WISH I COULD TURN BAC TIME. im serious. no matter wad, i know u are able to read this. u are up there, observing us, looking at us. i hope ure happy with your grandma there ok? i'll always pray for the very best for u. =))
MIN LOO. A SWEET, LOVING, CHEERFUL GAL. I MISS U. ='( NO MATTER WAD, U WILL ALWAYS BE REMEMBERED BY ME, BY US. I LOVE U. TAKE CARE.
Tuesday, May 01, 2007
myramoxiaomai from URL @ 17:11
ok. should i apologise? ive not been blogging i know. life these days seem unpredictable. that msg from him was shockingly fuckingly surprising. but his response ytd was even more fuckingly retarrrrded. i suddenly feel lost. so lost. ive not been doin any schoolwork lately. not even work regarding sse. not even a lil' bit of housework. wad ive wished for finally come true, that ive got a bad fever. had a real bad dream ytd wic woke me up ard 3AM and another time at abt 6AM. was supa terrified. a repeated nightmare i should say.
ytd's event seemed so sucky. wasted ma time. lost ma dignity. wasted ma transport fare. evrythg seemed so sucky. i hated maself for bein so soft-hearted and evrythg. i wish i could be MORE frank. STRAITFORWARD. ive never ever remember spending ma days fruitfully. I HATE THIS!
u suck.
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