successfully only used the com for 3 bloody hours. :) way to go! and, instead of going to the gym ytd, me, bai, banana and firs neph went to play bball. acty we planned to play bball only for awhile, before heading to the gym. but we were so engrossed that we didn realise it was already 2100 so we guessed no point going as the gym might be closing soon. however, i really had fun with bball ytd. i thought it was indeed an accomplishment, to be able to play with your fam, to be able to sweat it out! the feeling was jus so SHIOKK! jus that now feet damn tired! haa. but of course i didn get to sleep before 2300 ytd. was catching up with kat till 0050 i think. so in the end slept at 0130. i didn meet my target, but was glad for i acty slept earlier! i shall sleep even earlier tonight! hopefully.
jus got a msg from anne. she had diarrhoea! takaire horr dear angel :) remember, don care them! jus run to the toilet as much as much as you wan to! will be waiting for your call later! cant wait for tmr! aaahhh! =D
was bloody excited jus looking at those websites where they giv you the opp to work from home and earn. has been my wish since like God knows when. im gonna start pretty soon i hope. :) and excited of another thing: the surprise! hopefully it will go as planned. then we'll see from there :PWednesday, February 27, 2008
CHEEBYE. im afraid even how much i tried to use this eye therapy to help reduce the puffiness and the blackiness of my eyes, it will never work. especially not when i refuse to sleep early. i mus mus mus sleep before 11! this is my nex mini goal. STARTING TMR! awww mann, i hated my panda eyes so bloody much that i thought i look better with that white thing on. jus two letters, CB!
THIS IS THE ONE. THE ONE AND ONLY GODSIS. MA WAI WAI ZAW.
THE FOOD :)
managed to get out of the house tdy, after days and days of cooping myself up at home. our awaited date tgt. like finally! had a fabulous time with sis wai. the thing is, she treated me tcc as a birthday present! awww. and made me a letter and a card. so sweet ehh. hope she likes the birthday present i got her.
sis, HAPPY 7TH YEAR ANN! although gotta admit we somehow lost touch somewhere in between, like end of sec four and most of year one, what matters, is that, we hav always been in one another's hearts. :))))
honestly im really proud and thankful to hav a sis like her. i learnt a great deal of things from her. shes real smart, and very sensible. especially today sis, whatever you shared with me came as an eye opener for me. it made me think deeper, and made me be aware that there are such things happening to others and that we are much more fortunate than them and of course we should be grateful with whatever we hav, whatever that is given to us. and, at the same time, still pursue whatever we wan, cus being easily satisfied is not a good thing either.
thanx sis, who cares, who advises, who has never failed to cheer me up. muacks! =))
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and belinda surya! thanx for sharing with me! and thanx for listening to mine too. only we know that we are somewhat alike yeaa? i enjoyed talking with you! all the best to the both of us! ;)
sometimes i wonder, why am i like this? why did i allow myself to not sleep early? why did i allow myself to develop those panda eyes? in fact it's cus i really couldn get to sleep. eversince don know when, i couldn get to sleep at night. used to sleep at 12AM latest. slowly 1AM, then 3AM then 5AM and then now 6AM! omg omg! it's like my routine. i really really couldn get to sleep at night. and then i'll be sleeping in the day till around 1PM? thats about it. but i was really glad i was awake till about 6plus this morning. cus at around 4.38AM, w0shiahs0t approached me online. okok. i meant aaron. and we talked about sth really really important to me, and i found out sth so incredible to even believe it! but i somehow did. after he talked to me, i felt much better, and i somehow feel that my route is now clearer. i could see the path, where im supposed to be going, as in for now. the haze wasnt so bad already. it seems clearer now. thanx aaron for telling me, i trust you. now i wonder how do i get this message across to cc and the rest for that matter.
my sister was jus pretending to cut his hair, and he thought it was for real. he was probably too sleepy that he couldn open his eyes even when we told him we were done with the haircut! i thought he was so adorable! he made my day today! :) it really feels so good to hav little children around in the house. there are pros and cons of course, but you can never deny that they are the ones who never fail to cheer you up when youre feeling down. :))
do spare some time to watch this video for more details! =P
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im gonna grab that chance tmr mann. better be good. i don wanna be stuck at home. this is so pathetic. really pathetic.
Sunday, February 24, 2008
myramoxiaomai from URL @ 17:37i always know how precious life is, and how we should make full use of it, how we should, like what many would say, "live life to the fullest". it sucks when you know what to do but jus plainly never get down to doing it. like when you know how precious your family is to you, and yet you never do anything to show that you really love them, care for them, until they are gone, or when they are "near to gone". ohmyy. i wont ask why is this happening to me? cus im sure many out there are experiencing this too, only that it is a matter of time. i pray i can live through all these. :(
by the way, this is dedicated to YOU, i may not be tearing now, am i glad for that. im no longer an emotional loser that you used to know. im no longer the girl who needs you everyday by my side to listen to all my grievances. im no longer the girl who will cry for you, for not being able to see you, to hear your voice. but the problem is that, now, only my heart is tearing, and im tryna fix it. so here it is, and toast to us after today! :)
i kept looking in all places, where youre supposed to be, but i never seem to find you, and youre all i long to see. i jus cant seem to understand, what it was that changed your mind. all this time i thought i knew you, when really, i was blind. but now that i do not hate you, and i knew that i never will, because i care about you then, and i care about you still. eventhough you hurt me, i cant seem to let you go. but i will go on without you, and i wanna make sure you know. it will take sometime to mend, the damage youve done. but broken hearts do heal, that's where strength comes from. for now, the tears may be falling, and my thoughts keep circling to you. but soon, things will get better. if you hav hope, then they will always do.Saturday, February 23, 2008
i jus had a news from my ex-colleague from ANCHORPOINT HAAGEN-DAZS, saying that her dad passed away. it was really so sudden, and it shocked me quite badly. i really hope she'll be fine. i could understand totally how she mus hav felt now, and like everyone else who still has a father, of course we'll always pray this will never happen to us. but sadly, this is the reality of life. one lives, one goes. we jus hafta remain strong. izza, you'll be fine, trust me. we'll meet up real soon nex week okayy? i really do care for you :)
so today had a nice game with FCUKERS. gotta know one more new person from hss - gary? yea mus be. one of their friends. okok. not my problem. haa. but xialan-kia was damn funny, saying that he (gary) wanted to know jy, when he didn even say anything at all. and then he was even funnier when he saw my little brother and said "no need make your hair liao lah! see me? also no need to make one!" like duhh. youre BOTAK whatt. wahaha. damn funny laa you!
so had a few games mostly with bro, little bro, biatchpartner and lesbianpartner :) seriously it was great progress that lesbianpartner agreed to play cus she never does! like never AT ALL! haha. had a great time with them really. they were a bunch of crap, and i hafta say, im proud of it, of them :))
HAD A REASON WHY THIS PIC IS MADE LARGE. SIAOZHABOR, SPECIALLY FOR YOU! FIGURE OUT WHYY =P
I THOUGHT THEY WERE FUCKINGLY CUTE! HAHA. ESPECIALLY GIANT WITH THE HAIRBAND. LESBIANPARTNER SAID HE LOOKED LIKE A PIG SITTING DOWN THERE CUS HE WASREALLY REALLY PINK!HEYY ERIC! THAT WAS A COMPLIMENT! A CUTE PIG! :))
so there! nothing much. today's jus the beginning of what I call, the exercise regime. hope for more, gonna ask for more and yearn for more! be it vball, bball, badminton, jog or hit to the gym, any of these will do. i really really need them! okayy, gonna sleep now. gotta wake up darn early tmr for that bloody firs aid course. goshh. why on earth did i sign up for it? im really lazy! errks
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you really disappoint me. it hurts quite badly when i think about it. you hav disappointed me, and you had to disappoint me again. nonetheless, i'll still wait patiently. thats part of human life. :) again, it might be worth waiting after all ..
it's all worth the wait. now i feel so happy when i finally could surf tonight.
i don know whats wrong, but everything seems to be in a mess. my earpiece couldn work, my webcam spoilt, my WHOLE keyboard's GONE! like all the keys were plucked out by my beloved nephew. haha. so much for being loved. ohwell, jus a kid. jus a kid. good that im taking early childhood, if not wonder what i would hav done to him. and the windows movie maker was fucked up, cus after i added credits and clicked "done", the whole maker suddenly closed! wtf? couldn even do things that i enjoy doing. and there is no more adobe photoshop in my lappy cus someone accidentally uninstalled it. and then couldn upload photos from my cam to my lappy, but fortunately, could upload them to the com. and lucky enough, i had two msn accounts, so i could send the photos from me to me through msn!
but still, arent i pitiful?
tuesday, 19022008
CRISPY FRIED CHIC
HONEY BBQ CHIC
kat asked me out! haha. to study. at nus. a good thing nus is jus nex to our house :) had a very late lunch at aston's. not exactly in aston's but had aston's food in one of the foodcourts in the campus. had our crazy moments together, like getting lost in the middle of the night. every building looked the same! prince george park residence, to be exact. but, a thought came to my head. wouldn it be great to buy one of the apartments here and stay in it together with our friends? :) wishful thinking, but i remembered now, that cc, kk and me had planned to buy an apartment near tpy hdb hub so we could stay together plus, it wouldn be a hassle for us to drop by the office. come on, office's jus right beside! those were the days ...
anyways, while studying, we caught each other like dozing off while reading the notes! like our eyes were at the paper, but they were getting really small, and smaller,and smaller! was really funny i tell you! and there were times when we turned so bimbotic. a caucasian guy walked past us and asked his friend, "what are you doing?" and we immediately answered together, with that kinda bimbotic tone of voice: "STUDYING?" wahahaha. was damn hilarious.
wednesday, 20022008
our outing today reminded me of that "circle of friends" thingy. how we started out in Year One. it began with only the 3 of us, and then after that the circle grew to the whole whities, although now we arent exactly a group anymore. and then now i feel like we are bac to the 3 of us again, jus that the feeling is definitely different from when we firs formed. right girls? haha. ok. i shall not get kat to turn all nostalgic.
relieved that exams were over, scotted off to fareast, had fun in carl's jr., and then mel had to leave, while kat and i treated ourselves to some crispy chics (not again?), popcorn and a local movie - AH LONG PTE LTD. was quite funny. but you can call it a dumb show at times. well i don mind. had a good laugh, thats all that matters.
LUKE'S GIRL :) okok kat's gonna kill me!
KINDA AMAZED OVER THAT FULL MOON :)
and today afternoon had a movie marathon (ok jus two movies), lunch and junk food at kat's place. felt so bloody fat after all that chips and chocs and "gassy" drinks (wait how do you spell gaseous gassy?). but really had fun. jus when i thought we hadnt had chances to be together alone, we actually spent quite some time together these days huh? unexpected.
okok. waiting for the dates (already somehow confirmed): with him, sis wai, emo fam, fcukers, bel as in bekku, nyp kat and rusy, jasmine and the beach with bai and mat!
and to kat, after your date with honey, our turn! :)
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theres only one reason why i keep peering at my mobile, and that is to see if theres any message from you. i don really care the outcome. to me, that really can wait. however, i don deny that the thought jus excites me, but at the same time, i thought theres nothing much to be happy about. i somehow cant confirm my feelings for you. mebbe wait after we meet. this somehow sucks now.
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
myramoxiaomai from URL @ 23:57
dammit. fuck. im seriously fucking pissed off right now! arrrrrrrrrrrrrggggh. firstly, damn fucking tired. worn out over the past few days! max. no. of hours slept on average was 3hours? around there. yepp. so if i couldn score well for my exams, i seriously needa change "the way i am".
now ive found out that one of the software in my lappy has been deleted! i don know who. shall not start accusing anyone, but im really damn fucking pissed!!! AAARGH! now i cant upload any photos from my camera! like totally cannot! what am i gonna do? oh goshh. so pissed! YUCK!
initially wanted to update what happened today, chilling with kat and mel. but now ive got no fucking mood! but when my bro-in-law came home with a dvd for me, (JAY'S WORLD TOUR 2007!) i WAS SOOOOOO FUCKING HAPPY that i couldn help but literally laughed and laughed at, myself mebbe? it was a nice feeling, only for awhile.
NOW IM BAC TO BEING FUCKINGLY PISSED AGAIN! AAAAHHHHH!
i guess bai mus be mad at me once she read this entry, cus she cant stand too much vulgarities. she will develop headaches! so cute right? sorry bai! aint got no choice. FUCK!!!!Tuesday, February 19, 2008
while waiting for kat to bathe and stuff, i shall write something here. haa. some people may hav this thinking: you still can blog at a critical period like this? it's exam! go mug and stop your blogging for a minute! ahah! sorry i don giv up doing things that can make me destress. it IS important to destress once in awhile. majority of the people who know me describe me as a very stressed up person, way too emotional and such. so there. im tryna improve. haha.
anyways, really unexpected of honey to post that birthday message for me in her blog! more unexpected that she forgot shes being called honey! THANX LOVE!
and now, looking forward to study with kat. been sucha long long time. think again, it's good to study outside cus too much distractions at home. the tv, especially now that my sister's watching the jap version of hanakimi! oh the jap girl's much much better than ella! really! cute! the lappy, the nephews. the mother. ohmann. well, good to hav nus located jus nex to the house! myra, last paper! here we go! :))
looking forward to the many outings after exams! with the different people! and basketball with fcukers! and after that shall worry about my turning point in life. OUT!Monday, February 18, 2008
as exams are coming to an end, im beginning to worry. ive never felt this way before, but im really scared. indeed, i still have not gotten over my fear, the fear of how others will look at you, especially when you think they are better off than you. but fear otherwise known as,FalseEvidenceAppearingReal, mus be laughing its ass off me. cus i have not passed that stage yet, i fear what would they say when i come bac. i fear having to even step into that place again, but i really miss the atmosphere, the place. everything. oh gosh oh gosh. okok. ive no time to worry about this. ive got sf to worry firs.
cd today should be fine, after all that ive done ytd. went out for dinner with fam, watched dvd and stuff instead of using all that time to mug harder. but it was fine. now i hafta give 100% effort for sf. hey even if i hadnt gained much from sse, i don jus discard whatever ive learnt from there. make it or break it. it's my choice.
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im starting to feel the warmth of a family. im feeling it. oh how would i hav lived without them? but somehow it is so ironic. home is the place i feel most stressed, yet most relaxed, most annoyed by the sisters and brother, sometimes even the father and mother, but yet most "smiley" being with them? ohmann. is this how life should be?
had a supa dupa wonderful birthday this year. it might be the most memorable one, unless i hav more happening ones in years to come. im pretty certain about that actually heheh :) thats whyy i said might be and not was. but it was pretty cool and unexpected. and it would be nicer if i could meet up with sis wai like we had planned to. but i paid mercy for myself instead and rested at home for awhile, so we had to postpone our date to nex week!
i would like to thank every single one of you out there who remembers me :) especially those whom are jus acquaintances! thanx for the wishes! be it in friendster, my tagboard, sms, calls and surprises!
A BIGGG THANKYOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART,
to my fam members for the celebration and the delicious cake :)
to kak radya for the wish and concern
to anne my angel for the wishes and words of encouragement that mean so much to me. THANKYOU! :))
to sweetay who still remembers me and still could sms me all the way from msia to wish me! :D
to paikia bro and siaozhabor for the firs surprise and the nail polish!! i love the colours! especially the dark purple and dark blue! and ive started using it! :))
to lesbianpartner and ts for the ehemm "panda-eye" remover and the surprise!
to the rest of fcukers: eric, kun, yong, hwei, jiali for the wishes/surprise!
to sis wai, mr gary, khai kit, nana, wenfang, eleanor, biatchpartner, kat, mel, peg, viv, laura, yenyen, pinky, honey, joyce, alina, bel, yasmin, rino, vonnie, mel lemo, rusydia, izzah, reene, nehneh louis, abdul hakim, susanti, zur ... and i hope i didn miss out anyone! if i do please forgive me!!
you guys are the reasons why i could put that rare,genuine smile on my countenance! really!
so what was so special about my 19th birthday? i had full of surprises! bro and siaozhabor gave me a "grand" surprise when they suddenly appeared at my doorstep with a cake at 1202 AM, 15feb. yepp. it was very SHOCKING! we had cake, and watched dvd. although out of 13 people in my house, only 4 were still awake, plus bro and siaozhabor which makes it 6, we were still damn noisy, i thought. :P of course. siaozhabor present whattt. and yes i didn study anythg and was really tolerating my bloody blocked nose, feverish body and cold feet! anyways they left around 3AM and after that i still couldn sleep. so didn sleep the whole of ytd but was grateful that i could still 'walk" my way through dpip paper!
thinking i hadnt had enough of surprises, fcukers gang came to my house around 10plus PM and "ransacked" my corridor like wild animals! haha. slacked, ate, crapped.
birthday boy! syam! :))
MY ROCKY FAMILY :)
MY FCUKERS FAMILY :)
xialan-kia, paikia bro, ts, giant eric (new name = BOB!),
lesbianpartner, maomao, siaozhabor, master! :))
in and out of my house :)))
for a moment, i felt so blessed :)
oh take a look at the pictures of maomao entertaining my nephew, aaron. he had to keep relighting the flame of the candle and aaron would blow it! and relight, blew! relight, blew! relight, blew! WAHAHAHA.
lesbianpartner, pontimyra, siaozhabor
couple number one
couple number two
theres still couple number three and four in fcukers: master and chiobuu, maomao and sweetay :))
they jus refused to leave my corridor. they stayed there for quite a long time before deciding to finally walk to the lift! nabehh! master was crazy if you notice the pictures below.
mao had FUN! =D
xialan-kia didn wanna jump off the parapet! MWAHAHA.
I AM CRAZY OVER JAY, BUT, I DON MIND THIS, REALLY.
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when i saw your message, i really couldn believe my eyes. had been waiting the whole day and i thought you wouldn do it. but when you did, i was really happy till tears welled up my eyes. :) im looking forward to it.
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oh. and its not that i like you. its jus that i miss our "old" friendship. now we're so different. i hope we'll get better. :))
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