Sunday, November 21, 2010
myramoxiaomai from URL @ 02:34
HONEY'S 21ST BIRTHDAY PARTY ON THE 17TH!
was really great to have gotten the chance to catch up with my polyfrens. not to mention, people do change alot. honey looks very sweet now with her natural makeup and lovely curls. great to catchup with Belly and Melly. and we're gonna hav a date on the 3rd! :)
HAPPY 21ST HONEY!
MELLY! LOVES.
19nov was Belly's 22nd!! :) will make it up to you on the 3rd!
ok this is random of course. my fav kid, YX brought her fav toy: orange "specs" so we "played" with it and they were so excited to see themselves in my camera screen.
YX with her toy! damnn cute right? muackkks!
"Don let your fear of the rumour mill destroy your relationship". "Trust no one but yourself. Trust your heart. Trust your own judgement".
mebbe the reason why i didn tell anyone is because im afraid of what others might think, what others might hafta say.
mebbe the reason why i didn publicize or go deeper so soon is because im afraid to answer love's call after many failed relationships and empty bullshit promises.
HE, may be younger than me. but so what? age doesn matter as long as he's matured in his thinking, cus thats what that really matters to me.
HE, is different from those boys ive met and dated so far. HE, would text me everyday,
before he sleeps, when he wakes up, when he's gonna shower, when he's getting ready for work, when he's on his way to work, when he's reached his workplace, when he's having his break, when he's on his way home, when he's reached home.
EVERY SINGLE DETAIL.
he's sweet, matured-looking, understanding and whats important is, he has time for me. of course he has his flaws but i believe he can change for the better one day :) and mebbe, now i kno the reason why i didn open what i bought from Korea bac then in Jan. my precious skull accessories. mebbe it had waited for the right time, and the right person to keep it. he took the black one and i took the white one. and this would remind us of each other:) it has to be kept close with us wherever we go:)
im sorry if i ever made you feel offended,
or if ive ever made you feel unloved.
truth is, you should kno :)
LOVEYOU BBB ALFIE!
MYRALFIE IS LOVED. :)
Sunday, November 14, 2010
myramoxiaomai from URL @ 22:35
hi im here again. wanted to create a tumblr account but thinking of starting from scratch with the template and all, aiya damn lazy. so jus put off that idea of having a tumblr account. cousin was here jus now and we discussed alot, and i really mean ALOT about chalets, and short getaways. in jus one meeting, we hav alr planned a few parties for the family!
1. picnic at Marina Barrage or WCP for Mother's Day in May 2. bungalow chalet at Aloha Changi for Father's Day in June 3. short getaway trip to Fraser Hills for Ladies' Night!! (excited!!! :P)
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very unexpected of him to ask me out. but i don expect anyth more. friends for always.
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cant wait for tuesday! gonna talk my heart out to him. and he'd better tell me everything..
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wednesday!! honey's 21st party! cant wait to meet up with the others and hav a goooooood catchup! :))
myramoxiaomai from URL @ 05:52
im sorry.
i didn mean to raise my voice at you.
it was jus out of a moment of fury.
that moment, that few secs.
really sorry ibu. please forgive me.
NEXT
yes. alil' fed up.
thumbdrive's still missing.
post for the month of Oct still not yet done! (i mean my childcare blog)
and now my SD card went missing.
everything important to me went missing, one by one! fucking hell!!
jus because of this, i already feel so damn screwed lahh!
ccb. how how how? ahhh. fml.
NEXT
as days passed, i wonder how that lil' convo we had,
could turn our relationship into something deep and meaningful tdy.
but as you kno, it takes time. we'll go slowwwwwwwleeeee.
youre well-mannered and religious, and i could feel as though you'd brought me closer to God when im with you. no doubt you hav all the plus points,
but, things can wait. we will wait tgt. :)
NEXT
im worried.
worried sick.
dead worried.
im afraid my health is deterioriating!
i read about some articles online.
and im fucking scareddddd!
pray hard i don suffer from any of those diseases.
pray hard i don exactly hav those symptoms.
that they are jus temporary.
pray hard....
*btw girls out there. please be more careful. don wear so little clothing alright? and always be on your guard! don go bac home late at night! too many raping cases already. im scared myselffff.
Sunday, November 07, 2010
myramoxiaomai from URL @ 20:37
ok im still looking for my thumbdrive!!
where the fuck is it????
without it, i cant do my work.
most importantly i cant finish my portfolios!
and bac to work tmr, BAC TO REALITY!
this is it guys. oh fml big time!
after days of not working, feel alil strange (or lazy?) to start my engine once again. :/
NEXT
i came across a good (or not) opportunity, to work as a model.
i don kno if i should really take a bold step forward and try.
it's definitely cause of the money, and the fact that i do enjoy taking pics of myself, and posing. jus wondering how to pose sexy.. hmm.
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i told myself, i shouldn be depressed much longer.
what for? guys? come on. get a life. it's jus GUYS!
jus because we broke up doesn mean the end of the world. duh.
anyways, currently, 3 guys are tryna woo me.
i feel touched. i mean, im not pretty at all. IKR. don hafta remind me.
but im touched.
guy A has been waiting for me for about 4 months now, and now that me and him were through, i don wanna give A any false hopes, cos i really don hav that kinda feeling towards him. but i don kno how to put it across to him. he once told me, he had lost his chance. and this time, he wouldn wanna lose that chance again. oh God how?
guy B and guy C share the same name. and they live in the same area and, AND they hold the same job title! omg.
both confessed that they really like me, and has already asked me out.
all i can say is, the one whos most sincere and can show me his efforts, deserve to win. he who touches my heart with his sincerity and utmost effort, yes he is the one.
for now, single is still my choice. :)
and heres ending with what my beloved father has said on my Facebook:
"All my children are my life...who ever hurt one of them is hurting me and i will deal with them unconditionally..."
i wonder why he suddenly posted that to me, but i guess, being my father, he knos what ive been through. he knos. and for that, ILOVEYOU ABAH!!
Saturday, November 06, 2010
myramoxiaomai from URL @ 10:49
it's great to see a new "face" for my blog once again.
ive always chosen black for my background, if you'd realised.
but this time, because KAIZEN simply means KAIZEN, (fyi it means changing for the better)
ive decided to giv my blog a "brighter" sorta atmosphere.
no more "dark, gloomy, emo" kinda atmosphere.
it's a change, and it's a new start definitely.
people say, if you wanna change yourself, you hafta change as a whole.
change everything, from your inside to the outside.
what do you think of my blog? cool? haha.
and those pictures on top, they jus symbolize my memories. memories of my.... HAIR!
HAHAHAHAHA! different coloured hair.
each hair colour, has a story behind it.
im now working on picking up the pieces of my ________ heart.
you fill in that blank.
and also the pieces of my already messed up life.
hopefully, i can change for the better.
be a better person, a better teacher, a better daughter, a better human being so to say.
i wanna feel the sense of achievement in my life once again.
i wanna feel useful once again.
i wanna jus get back up, ON MY FEET, ONCE AGAIN.
and, i will.
i kno i will.
right now thinking of doing something fun.
you could never hav guessed, but i'll upload the video soon!
alright, off to shower! :)
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