Monday, March 01, 2010
myramoxiaomai from URL @ 00:49
i saw the clock ticking away, and wonder..
how fast time flies. like how everyone used to say.
i think bac, of all the things that hav happened.
family, friends, good friends, trustworthy friends,
conflicts, breakups, heartaches, work, colleagues, principal and the list went on.
for the past 2 months of 2010, and the past year, ive gone through all these.
and whats there to life without all these?
honestly, im grateful for all these.
now im worried. whatever is gonna happen to me this year?
i vow that in this new year, im gonna be a better person,
and i vow, as of 01march, major changes are gonna take place.
for one, im slowly cutting down on clubbing:)
now clearing all clubs. already patronized powerhouse and rebel for the last time.
now left with butter, phuture, supperclub, dblO and play!
and then, for at least 3 months i wont be clubbing, and after that 3 months,
if there is a "necessity" to club, if there is any special occasion,
only then i'll head down. if not, don expect to see me in any of those clubs.
myra mo wont be like she used to be anymore! :)
with these, im actually cutting down on smoking and drinking!
and God willing, i'll stop this drinking habit of mine!
(and smoking lah. ohwell. hard! =/)
and two, im not gonna be so dumb anymore. it's my turn to play.
and this time round, i'll solely blame the game, not the player.
because the player is, yours truly.
as long as im wearing my skull necklace, im carrying out the "rituals" of it.
im believing in "it". till i feel that there is the right one, which is, of course, hard. it is hard. and thats the essence of it all. the harder it is, the more meaningful it's gonna be.
three, im starting my healthy lifestyle from today onwards.
lifestyle now includes gym every mon, wed and fri.
and eating rice for only these 3 days.
and gonna drink lots and lots of water everyday!! (AHHH!! HARD SIAL!!!)
these are 3 top major changes. these are what im looking forward to.
but, im worried about one thing. jus one thing.
it's on this month, last year, that things started to change drastically
to my family. and it dragged on till the end of the year.
this time round, this year, again, SHE, is different.
SHE, is acting weird, yet again. my Rocky family now, is, really very rocky.
and i, DON LIKE IT. im FUCKING WORRIED. whats more, my dad has jus finished his operation, and is weak to handle things like that. so im really praying that things don get any worse than now. dearest sister, you hav no idea how much i love you like evryone else. :(
and to my dear brother, i'll pray for you. definitely will. ive seen the changes in you, through my heart. im really proud of you. Allah loves you more than us. He will protect you. InsyaAllah. i love you bro. :(
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dear CWST,
ive no idea what ive done,
but i wan you to kno,
that if i could feel your sincerity,
then, this game with you, wont remain a game anymore.
everything takes time. and i appreciate your honesty.
let it flow. it's all in the hands of God.
for now, we kno our boundaries. and we'll keep it as it is. so there. :)
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though ive probably mentioned more negativity here,
lets still welcome MARCH 2010 as the
OPENING OF MYRA MO'S NEW FUCKING AWESOME LIFE
with a BIG ROUND OF APPLAUSE PLEASE!!!
*FIREWORKS!!* *SCREAMS!!* *CHEERS!!* WOOOOOO~~ :D
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