hmmm im like officially 21 years 1 day old now.
having been through life up till this age, i jus feel like i hav a lot to say.
so whats best than to blog about it? it's time i update it. :)

birthdays birthdays ... surprise .. surprise .. hmmm.

bac in 2008, fcukers came right up to my doorstep and gave me a splendid surprise:)


bac in 2009, 13feb, before clubbing at dblO, fcukers surprised me with a doraemon cake at long john clarke quay! the nex day, bro gave me a great party with good company at dblO again:)


bac then, fcukers were as knitted and sticky as glue.
every sat we would meet up, no matter what.
every member would hav a great birthday surprise.
slowly, things started to change.
and even when we are not as close now, fcukers still gave me a
surprise on my bday this year. and i was touched by their efforts.
i kno things would change for the better.
i believe fcukers would be like how we used to be one day.
as close-knitted or even better. with new members :)
new members here means errr fcukers' members' gfs or bfs. lol.

till today, i could still rem hwei's wish on his 19th bday in 2008,
that fcukers would still remain close till everyone of us hits 21.
well, i believe it's coming true.
zh alr 21, anne, definitely. wilson too, and now me.
and we're still contacting. and im sure we'd be much more bonded in times to come,
when every fcuker finally turns 21! :)

so here's the cake for my 21st surprise. they knew i love green tea:)


eric as usual, the host with the cake and all :P


MORE PHOTOS IN FACEBOOK!! :)


and here was my early birthday party on the 12th at Powerhouse.

a card or rather scrapbook made by dearest siaozhabor. sibehh touched ahh!


one tallman, and the shawties. nvm. we're still happy with our height. aha!



and here comes the warm hugs!!!

sop, eve, shuni!



flaming treat by my dear son! woo! SHIOKK leii!



brothers ....

wilson, kun, jianhua, winson!






hmmm, it was indeed a memorable night, cus alot of my frens were drunk. haha!
other than that, nth much to comment. jus to let them kno, their presence that night was greatly appreciated!

thanx deer, gf, jingting, ts, (for the arrangements too), wilson, shuni, kun, jianhua, thomas, win, ben, julia, sop, kelvin, eve, weiwen, mel, joey, peg, desmond (for making the splendid drink!), and also to keith, zhiling and mingxiu! THANX WITH LOVE! :)

and because i jus felt like declaring my love to my loved ones, here goes:

to my dearest RockyFam. i love you all! blood ties will never die. :)




best sister ever. though we may not be close at all now, to me, youre always in my heart:) soul and bloodsisters forever :)


best cousin sister. muacks.



now that family comes firs, second closest to my heart definitely has to be my one and only DEER:) LOVEYOU! thanx for everything that youve done for me! i love your frankness and your honesty and sincerity towards our frenship:) 7 years and counting k? and saturday, is also our happy 20th again!! ONE MONTH ANN! :) LOVELOVEYA!


nex, my dearest. she treated me to Thai Express for my birthday, and bought me purple eyeshadow! loveya dearest! we really should meet up more often! 12 years and counting!!



and here comes EMOFAM!

my mellydear! though we seldom contact, i could always see your efforts to bond us both tgt:) youre a deary and im sure many would agree to that. we'll definitely hav more hangouts tgt starting in march ok melly? loves!


old hag!! BUSY BUSY NOW HUHH?
but i still love you all the same! :)


katty!! nex door but still seems far away.
wil always rem your words of advice and encouragement for me.
and our wonderful times tgt during those polydays. will never forget. loveyou!



GF!!!! happy firs year ann alright!!
we may hav known each other only for a year now,
but we've definitely been through alot this past year.
let's aim for no more quarrels after our firs year ok?
loveya.


and people i will never forget in my life. not at all.
yesss. my BUDDIES. GESS BESFRENS:)
zh (again, hee), eve, ele!!
our frenship is jus so simple.
always filled with laughter and vulgarities LOL!
whenever the 4 of us meet up, not loud, sure impossible.
no beating/whacking each other, sure impossible.
no attention seeking (example, diao others or jus be loud) sure impossible.
but we aren attention seekers! we jus happen to attract alot of attention from the crowd.
iloveyouguys alot! muacks:)


THE HELLO-WIN gang.
little did i kno, from jus a simple introduction and conversation,
we developed a bond, and a new clique formed.
platonic frenships, and we shall remain goodfrens for life!
you guys are great! loves!!


my hardcore clubbababes.
soon, i wont be in this clique no more!
so club with me more real soon before i decided to quit for life!
loveyou girls!


a great fren, joeyyeohhuiping!
thanx for the bday treat
thanx for taking care of me
thanx for the joy and fun!
muacksssss:)


alina!! i kno youve always treasured me alot.
since polydays. and youve put in alot of effort to maintain our frenship
and our bond. sorry if i couldn be there for you my dear!
will put in more effort in future ok? muacks!


belly! one of my closest frens in my heart!
we needa meet up again! aaargh. missyou! :)


haha my one and only HONEY!!
we hafta date out soon!
i miss those crazy times we had tgt, how we laughed alot tgt.
youre a fren whom i'll treasure for life.
very warmhearted and considerate.
loveya loveya loveya!


rani!! im jus glad that we can still meet up during briefings!
ive watched how youve grown since those polydays till today!
youve changed alot! thanx dear for your advice and your treats!
i miss those times we lepak and smoked tgt, tho. but now youve quit!
nevertheless, youre still a great company to be with!
LOVEYA LOADS!


and here's my JURONG FAMILY!
we'll help each other as much as we can alright? muacks!


dear besfren, missyou:)
thanx for your help all this while.
you'll never be forgotten :)


mykamlia!! work without you guys means lesser fun!
so please please be full time teachers like real soon!
i cant wait! :)


and lia. youre one rare girl that ive met so far.
your views and opinions of people hav made me realised that we as humans
shouldn jus see things from the surface and start to judge and criticize.
because youve taught me, that no matter how bad it may seem from the outside,
we never kno whats beneath it.
youve taught me a new way to see things and view life.
youve taught me to be a forgiving person too. loveyou girl!


fel dear! thanx for your company all this while!
we'll definitely get closer as years go by.
more dinners soon to come! muacks!


and last but not least, to you.
thanx for the bday wish.
though ive forgiven you, it's hard to rebuild that frenship we once had.
mebbe it's jus fated.
i look bac at one of our photo albums entitled: NOT GONNA BE THE LAST COUNTDOWN
it means, you and me, would definitely meet for every countdown.
we had once promised. but you destroyed it all jus by a little but crucial mistake.
and that album title meant the opposite - it was the last countdown :(
please stop appearing in his life anymore, even if its jus virtually, unless you belong to the same group as him: BASTARDS AND BITCHES FOR LIFE.


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i do miss those times when we were closer.
now, even our frenship seems different.
it seems bleak.
it hurts me to see us this way.
whenever we meet, everything takes a 180deg turn.
till today, ive never deleted those msgs you sent me in 2008.
because, i do treasure you alot.
but now,
youre different, and that makes us different from before.
sometimes i really do wanna cry out loud.
because crying inside is so much more painful :(

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im not looking forward to the bling bling party on the 20th.
i don kno. jus got a bad feeling about it. damn.