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Sunday, March 08, 2009

myramoxiaomai from URL @ 01:08

SIGHHHHH. BIG SIGHHHHH.

tell you. i really don know where to start.
i guess im running too fast, and at the same time distracted
by everything around me that i didn realise im heading towards
a waterfall. im nearing it. very near. i might fall soon.
and whatever happens nex, i don really wanna know.

#1
how? when i saw the message, i was like OMG?
"thanks for not listening to my advice .... from now on,
you don have to call me your father anymore"
HOW? HOW? i wish i could helppppp. everyth's so awkward now at home =(
what can i do? but i know he still care. which father doesn love his daughter? =(

#2
my soulsista. what can i do to help her. really feel for her.
it's hard for her. and for my cousin. and for mummy and papa. =(
please sis, stay strong. sighhhh. =((

#3
my dearest. what happened to you?
youre so different. sounds so down.
yet, you didn wanna tell me anyth jus now.
:( why? did i do sth wrong? then tell me:(
i really don understand. sighhhh.

#4
fcukers. fcukers. fcukers. :(
heck heck heck.
cant cant cant.
think too much think too much think too much.
no more no more no more.

im glad no more darlings.
i think it's all fake. :(

no more online buddies.
no more crap.
no one to confide in.
no one to share with.
no brothers, all a name, a name, a name.
for fuck? for fuck? for fuck?
to myself to myself to myself. :(

#5
WOW. EMO FAM seems to vanish into thin air.
all my fault. sorry. :(
sorry haggy. but i knew it long ago.
you and melly hav put in so much effort
to meet up, to maintain this wonderful frenship of ours,
though we hav crossed different paths now, working our ass off.
but why do i suddenly feel the "gap"? yes the gap. :(
thats why i did it. that is why. :(

#6
haagen-dazs brother. sorry :(
sorry. sorry. sorry.
all i can say now is IM SORRY.

#7
jintai besties.
especially zur and ming.
THOUSAND APOLOGIES =(
SORRY! SIGHHHH.

#8
yea it's for you.
we don know each other.
then slowly, we started talking.
slowly, i started teasing.
slowly, you made her suffer.
slowly, i feel like ive wronged you.
slowly, i think im beginning to dislike you.
eventually, i was damn irritating to you.
i was damn fucked up.
and, really, im taking bac all
the good words ive mentioned about you to everyone.
and now, ohwell. i don wanna think what might happen nex.

#9
people change.
you change.
youre very happy now.
im happy for you:)
i shall del it away.
i shall.

I DON KNOWWWWWWW. IM ABOUT TO FALL. REALLY.
SHALL I JUS JUMP DOWN THE WATERFALL?
FUCK MYSELF. FUCK EVERYONE. FUCK IT.
THAT IS WHY. ONLY GF SEEMS TO BE BY MY SIDE.
but i cant do anyth to make her feel better:(