FASTING MONTH IS A BLISS. I LOVE FASTING MONTH! :)))))))

since the beginning of this month, ive been like battling with my innermost feelings. really, when one is hurt, no one can describe how much pain one has to endure.

hmmm jus end of last month, i had 3 different things to worry about.

firs, childcare work, but NOW. ive decided to cont working there and im getting the hang of it. jus get the thousand plus and ENJOY this october can already ehh!

second, fcukers chalet. i really wanna plan sth really memorable for fcukers ehh. buttttt, i don know. now im not as worried about it as i did before so im fine :)

third, HIM. i don know whats got into me. since that night ive been feeling so sadddd so painful so maddddd!!! i couldn really sleep and i was not in a right state of mind. so it dragged on til tue night. after childcare ended around 6plus, i went loitering alone at tiong to wait for zh till she came around 10pm. i told myself, alright. i shall slack. i wont eat. i rather suffer. i wanna suffer. lemme see how long i can go without food and water. so i was fasting all the way till i met zh and bro and kun. my firs meal was around 10plus with them. acty i didn wanna eat. i wasnt hungry. from around 7pm to 10, i was sitting at some staircase near kun's block and was like smoking and smoking and smoking away. okayy ahh. only smoked 10 sticks. still slow. could hav finished the whole pack. then, i had a new friend for company: BATMAN. this black cat which suddenly mewed at me and sat on my lap! and then he, err i forgot to check whether it's a male or female. lazy see la!! but i guess male. anyways, BATMAN suddenly like scratched on my lap la! PAIN OK! i guess he wannted to sharpen his claws but used my bloody pants to do so. nabehh! but nevermind. i talked to him. i really did and i cried. haa. i felt better after that!

BATMAN'S HEAD! KEEKEE.

neways, slowly slowly, i felt life wasnt so bad now. haa. as before. as last month mebbe? hope it gets better. and fasting month so rawks. i didn eat much this fasting month. and i lost weight! haaa. shall continue losing weight :))) I MUS!

and wednesday night went far east to look for sundresses to wear to mel's party! cuckoo. i saw alot of dresses for clubbing kind luhhh. was more interested in those heh :) so funny. dinner with yanyan and bel at HAN'S. was hilarious. great company! was glad that bel felt better :)) and yanyan! your fashion sense is like zomg! haha. i'd better see you dress up when i see you again in 10 years time ehh! =DDD




then went home with zh cus she worked til 930 ma. jus wait lorrrr. haa. yuck singlish really sucks. haa. but again, when i reached commonwealth, didn feel like going home. ahhhhh. but i went home anyway.


ohyea. found some random pics! haa.

AARON LUHH. POSING!


SYAM THE ARTIST.


CUTE LEHH.


INTERESTING FREE HAND :)





errr i guess its not that i don like her and stuff. ok ahh last time i used to hate her the firs time i know her. act xialan only. nabehh. slowly still ok with her ahh. shes not a bad person, but she tends to write things which are quite untrue. either facts were missing, or she added extra stoopid facts to make her and someone appear better. i don know ahh. fuck larr. she wrote in her blog like she knows that people are gonna read her blog so mus put nice nice or mus add facts here and there or whatever laaa so she appears cool and whatnot. so DOTSSSSS. don make me hate you even more than i used to. i HATED you so im warning you, don make me HATE you now.