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i didn know my father actually ordered pizzas to "celebrate" my younger bro's birthday ytd as well as my dad's which is on the 29th later. and i had already cooked like ramen for myself cus i had a sudden craving for it. so, the pizzas, i ate like four 1/4 of 1/8 pieces of a pizza. you got that right? haha!

that day, i didn know how i felt.

number one: the night before, which was a sunday night, i was busy with my practicum stuff that i only slept at 0500 plus hr and woke up around 0700 to drag myself to centre. had my supervision. thanx guys! i passed. with flying pigs or not, that's another thing altogether. and, i survived attachment with only 2 hours of sleep. nice. =)) but by the time i reached home, i was too tired yet too hard for me to get to sleep. wonder why.

number two: i jus gotta know the fuckingly shocking news. no wonder i didn see him online nowadays. how how how? though he's not a close relative of mine, i do feel for him, despite whatever he's done. i wonder what's the verdict. ohmyy. pray for him. and i was also worried for my younger sis. heyy girl hope youre fine and don think so much. we'll speak up for you. i will, although it was hard when i tried to reason with abah, cus my tears were welling up! and i really hope mummy and papa are fine. and nek timah too. sighhh. sometimes things cant be helped. i wish i could helpppp... i really do.

number three: my dad showed me his video when he sang a sentimental hindi song. and i looked at him in the video, and teared!! WHAT THE? i didn know. i jus had to. i realise i hav sucha good understanding father actually. he meant well for me, and for everyone of us. he did give me freedom, too much too. and he trust me alot. jus that i know i sometimes fail to come bac home and stuff, and slowly, mebbe his trust for me tends to waive? yeaa. i shouldn blame him rightt? for not letting me out at night? i gazed at him in the video, and i wondered. what if he is gone? really what will happen one day later when i come to know he's gone? he has done soooo much for me. what hav i done for him? he massaged for us when we were in pain. but who's gonna massage for him when he's aching nowadays? whenever we hav problems he'd rather talk it out with us and reason them out. really. i really look up to him. i love him soooo much.

number four: what ibu said was true. all these were tests from God. bac then our family had too many crises to begin with. and we were really looked down upon by them. now God is jus being fair. every fam do hav their share of ups and downs. i truly believe in You. i truly sense Your existence and Your power. i fear You even more. and i really pray You would protect us. me, my fam, my relatives, my friends.




GUYS, TREASURE THOSE AROUND YOU. I REALLY CANT STOP SAYING THIS, CUS IT'S REALLY IMPORTANT TO DO SO.


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kat and i. i love the way we bully each other and be momentary lesbians in public. at the same time showing affection and, "hatred" to each other! oooooh. haha! let us journey on with strong hearts and minds. we can do it! =))

KAT IS MAD; MAI IS HIGH! WOOHOO.