Sunday, June 29, 2008
myramoxiaomai from URL @ 07:43
when i heard the news, i really thought i would die of heart attack. firs case. initially i thought i couldn make it to give siaozhabor a bday surprise. i really didn wanna spoil her bigg day, with my grievances especially. but ohwell. pulled myself tgt and decided to bear with it alil. be strong. yepp. finally fcukers met plus cherry QQ, but jm and jl couldn make it. awww. off to vivo to surprise siaozhabor, then headed to bugis, then lau pa sat then walked bac to tiong. it's normal. walking is like a routine for us, a habit. and i reached home not long ago around 0700plus hrs.
sometimes i wonder. was i wrong? are we all so bad? we arent bad people. this is jus our way of spending time tgt. being tgt and overnight/sleepover or jus taunt out is normal to us and it's like our "tradition". it really is. cant we jus do what we wan and spend time tgt at least for one and a half day? why cant my fam be more supportive. fcukers is a part of me. i can say ive no reason to go on if fcukers were to disappear from my life, i swear. a big part of me would be gone too. im serious. why cant everyone jus understand? it's not like as if i go drink and make chaos or damage public property or what. heyy. please. we had no chance to meet except for like jus now. it's probably been a month. im stuck with childcare and work every other day of my life. now then i could find jus ONE DAY free to go chill with them, was i wrong? fuck mann. stop looking at me as if i am a bad girl, i am an alien in the house. fuck mann. fine. im bad. i don care for the fam. i don show good example to my sister and brother. im so fucking bad! ok??? ive ruined my life. i used to be a smart girl right abah? but ive destroyed my life jus cus of this group of friends of mine who has influenced me the wrong way. is it? grrrr. please. i jus need you guys to trust me. i'll tc of myself out there and i wont tarnish our family's name! i wouldn dare okay! oh i jus found out from ibu that my whole fam acty went to mustafa centre and they got bac home a lil earlier than me at around 0600? no wonder none of them called to check on me. sighhhhh. but time flew really quickly. today is bac to sunday and i'll be working later from 1400-2300. and then here comes the deadly routine monday-sunday. tons of teaching and work to do. fuck myself biggg time. and i neeeeeed to sleep badly.
but yea before that, here are some snaps i took jus now with my phone. i miss my sony. had to send for repair cus some idiot probably spoilt it but didn wanna admit. anyways, gotta wait for siaozhabor to send me the rest of the photos!
HAA. PREFER HER NEW REFRESHING LOOK. AWWW MASTER! SO BLOODY CUTE LUHH NOW. PLAY TILL EYES O.O BROTHER! AUSTRALIAN BORN CHINESE ALREADY! =X POSING WITH MY BAG! BOTH PICS LOOK LIKE MEL. SERIOUSLY.
 ERIC!!! ACT CUTE? HAA.
SORRY SIAOZHABOR!
sorry. could see you were quite siann jus now. sighhh. you know us. we always couldn decide on where to go. and about zh and ts, i truly feel that, without their qualms and stuff, that would be so unlike fcukers. seriously guys, jus now if you guys could notice, i really didn bother at all to help you two anymore. it happened so many times that im truly tired of it all. but i do enjoy the moments spent with you guys. when you guys sat down tgt and talked, though mostly full of crap. i really enjoyed watching the different personalities and the attitude of each and everyone of you. without all this, we wont be called fcukers. fcukers wont exist. all i ask for is to spend as much time as i could spare with you guys. how i wish time could jus stop there and we could spend more time tgt. being with you guys jus made my heart at ease. :)) im blessed to hav met all of you. serious :)) muacks!
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