Wednesday, February 13, 2008
myramoxiaomai from URL @ 22:52
now fever and flu abit down, jus cus ive decided to eat those med. ohhmann i should hav listened to ibu earlier when she asked me to eat them! i hope i can study better later. past few days they had been giving me real problems, and my neck got worse. the pain jus was so damn awful!
anyways, im not looking forward to any birthday celebrations whatsoever. honestly. jus expecting to enjoy the moment with sis wai on that day. and now im worried cus i haven got anything for my nephew. he had been telling me "cik mai. (meaning aunty mai, thats what he calls me) buy for me the bumble bee kayy? then we celebrate tgt kayy?" he wanted the transformer thing sooo badly and i don wanna break my promise of course. grr. but i hope he'll enjoy his birthday this year. happy advanced 9th birthday, boy!
watched KD today, AGAIN! okayy. for those who wanna kill me, please do so. i know i know. exams in two days time and i still hav the mood for a movie? well, eversince i came bac, jus wanted to accompany buddy and best listener cus they hav not watched KD yet. and also cus i hav always follow this saying, "do things with your heart." so i was jus following my heart and did what i felt like doing. but, but, i know that i will hafta bear the consequences later. so there. exams will definitely go smoothly for me. oh yes please. pray to Allah. :))
the significant thing about the movie, i realized, was the dialogue. things like "wo bu hui rang ni shi wang"? meaning i wont let you down. and things like, don make me regret my decision today. those dialogue really mean so much to me. really reminded me of something so important in my life, something that i had went through for many many months, and tmr, 14feb, marks one year being in it. and altho i know ive not been accomplishing much from it, i will never ever forget those days, 20th and 21st october 2007. urrgh. now im feeling all emo again. okok. stop it.
BUDDY :)
DANISH SOMETHING, MINT, BAILEYS :) ANDERSEN'S!
I LOOK LIKE A SICK PIECE OF MEAT!
DINNER WITH BEST LISTENER OF MINE :)
I LOVE HIM, IF YOU REALLY WANNA KNOW :)
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im feeling abit better now. cus i always remember ele's words. treat him like a friend. don tell yourself that you miss him. it is jus a temporary affection for him, not what you think is love. so true deary :) thanx! why was i so dumb? haa.
and sorry dude. mebbe that 'blocked' thing made you close your door on me. sorry! really sorry! i didn mean to! i did that cus i thought it would be better for you! now i understand the change in your attitude towards me. and till today, i wonder if you ever read all these. seriously. youre jus one mystery im tempted to find out, to solve, yet i'll always pull myself bac after getting at it alil while. wonder why.
i know you treat me like as if im the "bestest" among the rest. im really happy, im really honoured. i really feel that at least, theres someone there who truly appreciate me and accept me for what i really am. but why do i somehow sense that youre "using" me? okayy mebbe the word using may be a cruel word to use. but thats how i feel. it always happens everytime when nearing exams. sometimes i need that freedom and frankly at times i don know if youre telling me the truth or not. and in the end, your results jus make me feel so bad of myself! like im so useless, so stupid. please don give me the wrong message. youre jus too pampered and too blessed. im sorry. im sure you'll ace so badly that i'll feel so jealous of you.
ohyess. i talk too much. one thing for sure. of course i'll stay home for valentine's. whats the big deal? i jus cant stand seeing singapore infested with love souls carrying teddy bears and roses around. yuck. oh but one thing: bro, i know you don need my good luck for tmr. things will turn out good for you and her. jus, jus, please don be like those love souls having teddy bears and roses walking around town. sorry. jus ewww~
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