Thursday, February 07, 2008
myramoxiaomai from URL @ 14:36
chinese new year eve wednesday, 060208
up and foremost, GONG XI FA CAI to all my frens! :) during this ocasion do i realize that acty 99% of my frens and 100% of those who are close to me celebrate cny! thats why i guess it is no surprise if you find me celebrating it too with them.
which explains today, as in wednesday, meeting up with fcukers at eric's house to "play". it was really a nice feeling when all of us get together like this. because i was quite down the past few days when i always asked them out but in the end, only me zh ts bro and sometimes eve too, would turn up. urrg. so today was like an "eye-opener" for me! haha.
KUNGFU DUNK made my day! omg it was really good. the story was really really funny and it made me forget all the troubles i had. of course there are times when the movie jus made you cry. :) it was really nice and worth watching! and YESH! i'll watch it AGAIN with my buddy shujuan! :))
met up with bro & nehneh at around 2plus? accompanied nehneh to buy his shoes, his gf's watch, his shirts, bro's shirt, and he treated us MOS BURGER! oh yes. saw polymate diana working there. pleasant surprise! and we asked for 20 packets of chilli! :))
now pics pics and more pics! :)) bros outing.
BRO, ME, NEHNEH
 NEHNEH! "CAN I HAVE THE BIGGEST SIZE?" "I WAN TAKE PIC OF MYSELF." WAHAHA. IN THE END STIL MUS ASK PEOPLE TAKE FOR YOU! HAA.  
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when i came home today, what seemed to be "home sweet home" doesn seem sweet at all. not the least bit. it sucks. the feeling sucks. i feel like crying but i held them all inside. they are so damn fucked up. im sorry to say this but it is the truth :((
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what should i do? this is so ridiculous. i don wanna be seen as avoiding them but i feel that i no longer belong in that circle. i mean, its different. everything feels so different. i really cant deny that fact. mebbe those who know me long enough would hav guessed correctly. but if you were me, what would you do? this is the best way perhaps. i need time to let it heal. i need time to accept the fact. i need time to wash him away from my mind. but one thing remains the same. even how much you guys said that im important, i still feel so insignificant. you don hafta say anything, actions can tell. your thought matters. :((
CAN YOU SEE THE PAIN LIVING IN MY EYES? I NEED TIME ALONE. TODAY. I REALLY NEED IT.
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