Monday, February 18, 2008
myramoxiaomai from URL @ 20:16
as exams are coming to an end, im beginning to worry. ive never felt this way before, but im really scared. indeed, i still have not gotten over my fear, the fear of how others will look at you, especially when you think they are better off than you. but fear otherwise known as, False Evidence Appearing Real, mus be laughing its ass off me. cus i have not passed that stage yet, i fear what would they say when i come bac. i fear having to even step into that place again, but i really miss the atmosphere, the place. everything. oh gosh oh gosh. okok. ive no time to worry about this. ive got sf to worry firs.
cd today should be fine, after all that ive done ytd. went out for dinner with fam, watched dvd and stuff instead of using all that time to mug harder. but it was fine. now i hafta give 100% effort for sf. hey even if i hadnt gained much from sse, i don jus discard whatever ive learnt from there. make it or break it. it's my choice.
 
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im starting to feel the warmth of a family. im feeling it. oh how would i hav lived without them? but somehow it is so ironic. home is the place i feel most stressed, yet most relaxed, most annoyed by the sisters and brother, sometimes even the father and mother, but yet most "smiley" being with them? ohmann. is this how life should be?
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