Saturday, November 03, 2007
myramoxiaomai from URL @ 15:48
i was shocked when ma father suddenly approached me this morn and asked me lotsa questions about sunshine. it was really unexpected. we talked for about 3 hours or so and i confidently told him everything he wanted to know: what im doing, what are ma goals, ma targets, what exactly is ma objective and stuff. and i was so glad that he was able to understand me, and what i really wan in life. =)) im really grateful for that. he even told me he'd pray for ma success =DD and he would wait for this december and see whats the outcome =))))
and so i wouldn wanna disappoint him. like what mr alexx always reminded me, "myra. remember what you promised your parents ah." -_-
despite the fatigue everyday, the rashes, the itchiness of it all, the chickenpox to-be (i really hope not), i will still hold on, and move on. nothing will make me give up. nothing of that sort.
and school. it really seems so weird, so funny, so out-o-place. everything seem outta control. groupmates, project mates, we are certainly not like before. lunch breaks, and how we mingle, it's really funny. outcasts? no. ive never regard them as outcasts. i jus wish we can be much more open. and honestly, i don know if i belong to "this" group. can say comfortable, but at times, i jus feel odd being with them. it jus seems contradictory, but yeaa, it's really hard when it comes to friendships. honestly when it comes to poly or anything in relation to it, i don really feel that i belong. this jus seems so weird. oh mann. i would never wish that i could turn bac time, but at least, i don wan people to see me as what i am NOT. seriously, it's not a nice feeling at all. i feel so trapped!!
whatever it is, for those of ma friends i know facing the same problems as me, somewhat alike i would say, please know that i do care for you guys, and of course, if you know me well enough, i really do not know how to show it. affection, concern, those don appear obvious to you guys. but please. i really do care for you guys. do endure and hav patience. this is jus another phase of life. we'll get through it. =)) i believe so, and so should you.
AND DEAREST MIN LOO, I SUDDENLY THOUGHT OF YOU. HOPE YOURE WELL UP THERE. =)
LOVES. <3
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